Itz OKAY

There are times I wonder if I would die earlier than many others. You may wonder why I came up with that kind of opening and no doubt many would be angry if I say it out loud. The "weight" I need to hold in my heart is at times too great. People normally say "What you give you get back". It is most of the time true when you treat someone badly. How about the case where you are the ears or shoulders one can lean on to through their hard times or simply a bad hair day? I doubt it still holds true. I don't think I get either of this in return. Esp lately...

As much as I do not want to pour things out I know I still need to coz I don't know how else I can lift up myself..the very least; my heart. Besides jotting important life events in a diary, I think the reason why one has it is to release a lil bit of weight from the heart. Best part of it, it only "listens" and not question your silly actions or thoughts. It is a world of its own. Here I am, attempting to lift myself a little in a virtual world. I love saving papers but this time, I'm glad it is not on paper; I would end up smudging words that I write not only with the hand I'm writing with but also with the tears that flow out together with the words.

WARNING : Contents may contain sharp objects in various sizes.

Many around me may think I'm either tired or stressed out with my remourseful look these days. If you have this cloud above your head, this post may clear it up as long as your cloud is not as big as mine. To answer the first thought, I am both tired and stressed out....plus dissappointed and confused...and no doubt frustrated. Heavy. I know. I'm thankful the keyboard won't tell me to be thankful and there are others with bigger issues and less fortunate out there. And it won't tell me to stop whining or blame PMS on the wrong date. *Phew!*

This goes in many degrees. From personal issue to workplace to colleague to family to .........maybe everything surrounding me...

ONE - Me, Myself and I
I know my weight is beyond help now that we are going to be in December in juz few days time. My skin...I don't wanna discuss it here. My hair...I don't wanna discuss it here too. Same for my teeth...no decays but there's something that needs to be done and it involves operation...letz not go there and plz dun question me.

TWO - My Nest
My room. ok..I've got 2 rooms. 1 is super tidy. The other is super untidy. I've started clearing up stuff but I simply have too many stuff that after the pause, I dunno where's the resume point. And yea, few days left. *Sweat* don't bother telling me to throw away stuff I don't need anymore as I've already done it. Thank you. And yes, the clothes will be sent to a place where the less fortunate can pick.

THREE - The Job, The People and The Workplace
It would be wrong to rant this out and to mention name and places. So I will leave that out. What I can say is that my job is all virtual. It involves complaints and problems and requests and whatnot...which are all vitual. :p My work is not a pile of books you can read or go through and mark it as REVIEWED. If you don't get this, you will never get this. Sorry if that comes out harsh but yea...I've explained this way too many times to some ppl but they still couldn't get it and still ask me the same question about my job. =| Even if your work involves complaints and stuff...it probably doesn't involve you solving the sutff that the ppl actually complain about. And no..I'm not saying I'm and important person or my job is better or busiest compared to the whole nation.

The people. Many types.
People who expects you to get things done even when they don't know what you have to do or have to go through to get it done. This is normally those who you have to impress or in my case, people I don't want to step the wrong foot on. I don't work to impress. I love impressing myself though. It gives me more satisfaction. What do I get when I satisfy others first? I dunno. =p Maybe heartache or tears. *There goes my pessimism. Pardon me in my current state of mind and emotion.*

Then, there are people who decides you need to do this piece of work without knowing what he has decided. Funny? Trust me. This species is quite dominant. And yes, they are normally bigger than you. They will juz say "I want to replace this door by tomorrow. I have promised the client. They have agreed. You can do it. Do it." What they do not know is what the activity involves and best of all, they don't have buffer when you found termites underneath the door frames. Sounds fantastic rite? *That's a lil bit of my sarcasm kickin' in* This group of people is annoying.

Bossyboots. This bunch is obviously more annoying. As much as it is painful to deal with people, I am actually a people-person. I care. If you need that someone to get something done for you, consider her situation and most importantly, ask him/her nicely. You definitely want her to put her heart to what you need her to do coz u want it perfectly done so why give her such a nervewrecking feeling rite? Common sense yo! Pest. Coz they pester. =p

The ones who look up to you. This lil group of ppl are not annoying. If you find them annoying, you need to fix yourself. This has nothing to do with boasting but coaching. Crucial coz you want the lil ones to know and understand things correctly. GIGO. Remember? Wait...incase you dunno, it is Garbage In Garbage Out. Worst part is, you will get mirrored as garbage too coz you taught them garbage AND since you triggered the garbage, you need to clear up the garbage. If you don't get this...I feel sorry for you.

Place. Not too much about it I guess juz how it is managed or rather slotted/divided/shared/.... in the current location. =\ Apart from that, the word privacy doesn't exist on this part of the universe. hoho I dunno how many friends would turn up at my wedding reception. Thank you. It will be very memorable. Thank you.

'Nuff bout work. It never ends.

If you still don't understand what I do for living, don't bother even trying. It will either break me or break you. Let it  be. I will deal with it as I go with the flow. No point forecasting the subsequent months when no one knows what itz gonna be like.

FOUR - The Bells
It rang. And now it is getting louder coz it is getting nearer. Preparations? I don't quite know if 50% is done or not. There are things here and there and yea..EVERYWHERE. Last minute change of plans happens at almost every milestone. Set the date. Date was wrong so need to bring it fwd. Decided on the room. Got the furnitures and the curtains. Then feel like the room is wrong. The so-called correct room doesnt' even have the curtains matched to the theme.

One of my best pal said she may not be able to make it to the 1st reception. I didn't have the time to feel devastated. I juz know if it is true, then I will need to hunt for my other best pal and need to do it fast esp when there are clothes to match the theme rhequired. *sweat* The groom, no tux yet. His bestman...dunno bout clothes but maybe the person himself is probably not appointed yet. I dunno. Not within my control and being kaypo and not able to help is not good. This bestman needs to wear according to the theme. That's for first reception. 2nd reception, my bridesmaid's dress is probably(and hopefully) being tailored now coz I've given her the cloth weeks ago. The bestman...dunno who....dunno whether he has a suit or not...then again,according to many guys..it is more likely that they have a suit and it is easier to look for one even if they dun have one. Shirt is chicken feet...can get it from anywhere to match the theme. Would their green tones be of the same one? I dunno. No news. 3rd reception,last I heard...we will be wearing white. Haven't found the pair of clothing yet. Again. Not within my scope so not going to be a kpc. It will only annoy others. The bestman and bridesmaid...I dunno what they need to wear...what colour..which tone...i dunno. No news. Go ahead. Tell me to not worry about things which are not related to me. Thanks!

The rings. I'm glad I played the pester role coz it took almost a month to be ordered. And money doesnt' come from the sky too. This is done so it is not part of the rant. I still wanna put it here though. =p Sorry I pestered but didn't contribute.

The dowry....no news. I really dunno the status. If there is no diff, then my form is still pending. With the form still pending, what happens to the solemnization? I dunno.

What's left apart from the few mentioned? The room deco, hse deco, doorgifts, cakes, hand bouquets....ok..I can't think anymore....but trust me, there are many more. *sweat* Best of all, many can only be attended over the weekend (if i dun have to work) coz during weekdays, everything will be closed by the time I leave the workplace. Not that I don't have to work over the weekends, I normally request for late nite shift...so many to sacrifice. Run around to settle stuff during the day. Work late night til morning. Awesome. Wonder if any of this is appreciated at all.

One super thing which has been bugging my head and heart. Don't tell me how I should look. I won't accept something which will take my smile and mood away. It is MY wedding. Not yours. You had urs and now this is my turn. Sorry if this is harsh but you got it bugging me. Even after I've blurted out this sentence here, it is still there...bugging.

FIVE - The Gap and Uncertainties
As we swim deeper into the ocean, we meet many more kinds of fishes. These fishes understand and do things differently. This is The Gap. Wrong in your eyes. Correct in theirs. Nothing you can fix. Let it be. Keep on swimming and go with the flow.

What other creatures you come across and the actions you need to take if they welcome/attack you, you are wrong if you think you can foresee all this and plan what to be done. Why? Most of the time, you will still panic in the 5-feet swimming pool even when you know how to swim and 6-ft tall. Get the picture? All you can say is "If this and this happens, do A. If that doesn't workout, do B." To hardcode it will be recipe to failure so don't do it. Hardcoding will be very unwise if you work with big fishes who hold your future in the ocean.
Furthermore, you won't be swimming in the same ocean for long. Diff ocean may have diff spesies of fish. Trust me. You don't want to hardcode it. It will result in disappointments and I REALLY don't what that.

Guess I'm quite done. Mini facial done. Head is aching. Need to hit the sack.

p/s: Hope I can come up with something happy in my next post. Good luck to myself.

Note to self : No one can love you as much as you love yourself. Pamper yourself. Treat yourself nicely. You know you are the only one who can be as nice to yourself.

Beautiful Friday

This is an entry for a beautiful Friday. It comes on a Saturday because Friday was sooooo beautiful.

For the past few weeks, I can't remember a day I didn't feel stressed or irritated. Friday(yesterday) was somehow beautiful eventhough I left work at 9pm. This is wayyyy earlier compared to my normal days.

Friday greeted me with peaceful rain in the morning when I first opened my eyes. If you are not sure what it is like, it is the kind of rain which makes soothing sounds outside with some sounds of hit dripping on the window glass. If it was a Saturday, I would definitely sleep in. ;) It was only 7:30am when I woke up.

Would like to hit the shower but when laziness Ickes in, I turned on my laptop to see if there are any urgent emails from work(don't ask me why I did that). There wasn't any that needed immediate attention so it was good.

Upon show of the desktop, there it was; Biography of the late P. Ramlee clip I copied at work late Thursday nite. Or was it early Friday morning before going home on Thursday? Nvm.

Double-clicked on the avi file, I was frozen until 50% of the clip when I realized it was already 8:30am. Ouch! Lol! Hit the shower right away, get dressed and head to work.

Reached the office at 10:30am. Lol! Left work at 2am the previpus night anyway Nothing burning so I was lucky. :) Planned lunch with Dayah but while planning, we got into the idea for a massage session so we headed to Gardens. Haven't decided where to go but ended up at Slimming Sanctuary for shoulder and neck massage. It felt light and good after. Dayah wasn't too satisfied but I was. Probably her massuer has a different style.

When done, we shut the marketing person there and rushed to lunch. Where? Paddington House of Pancakes for the lunch set. It is only RM13.80++ ^__^

Back at work I was dissatisfied that I didn't have the time to walk around or buy anything; I'm blaming my hormones. For the shopping urges. :p

Anyhow, many tasks have been organized and things are not too bad at work. Left work around 9pm or so.

Lovely chat with Mr. Prince Charming and nade him lose his game for a bit. I shutdown my Friday at 10:30pm :)

Friday was beautiful.


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Jewellery Organizer

Recently saw jewellery organizer by gin&Jacqie. :) It comes in 2 sizes. What's awesome about it? The smaller size has 18 pockets on each side. So altogether it has 36 pockets. Was a lil tempted to get the bigger one but I seriously can't recall how many non-precious accessories I have in my collection so I opted for the smaller one. Being a fussypot, I always thought of preserving my posessions to last longer...so all the accessories are put into a small clear plastic bag...then only into the pocket. Just so that the accessories are not directly exposed to the air and IF any of it would discolour over time, it won't leave stain on the jewellery organizer.

What it looks like? See the image below.

What's so awesome you may wonder. Well, it is quite a way for a hoarder to get her stuff organized..... :p
For more products by gin&Jacqie go to its official website.

That's all for now people. I'm still dreading to get my room organized. Atleast the jewellery organizer helps to get rid of one box from the dresser.

1Liter Per Day?

Many may wonder how hard can it be to drink 1L of water everyday. I'm gonna tell you it ain't easy for me. :( Unhealthy? I know....Most of the time, I forgot to drink....so the water I brought from home will be left at work overnight to be drank the next day... *sweat* And yes, I bring my water from home....some water tend to taste funny....I trust the one from my home. =p

p/s: Been gewd this days; drink atleast half of the water in this bottle! In the meantime, Mr.Work, please don't distract me too much...I still need to remember to drink!

Educating Kids...Mathematics

This post was triggered by a friend's status update on Facebook saying "How to teach a 6-year-old boy who cannot pay attention and forget what he learned the next second? Trying to teach my son maths... Very frustrated...". I wanted to reply to her thread but do not want to spam her box. Wanted to write her a message but this would be quite long for her to read. *considering the fact that she didn't ask for my opinion but I still wanna blab"

I've never had any kids but I was one. ;) I started schooling when I was 4 in Brunei. The syllabus was based on Singapore so all my textbooks were obviously from Singapore too.

Counting Numbers
How I started counting? This may be a little bit lame but I sometimes massage my mom and my dad. No. They didn't abuse me or force me to but Brunei was a little bit boring and my mom was a housewife and I'm just a little kid. They would sometimes just call me and said "Tolong picit kaki sikit" (Please massage me legs a lil). By leg, they refer to calves. I would ask "How many?" They would reply in numbers. That was how I started counting. 1 to ten was not a problem coz I've got 10 fingers but going beyond that is something else. I started to hunger for more numbers into my head coz I always want to be smart...well,honestly not just smart but if possible the smartest! Some kind of behaviour I've got but I simply want to be the best. From 10 to 20 to 30 and so on. When I started schooling, I think able to count up to 100 is a super duper smart thing so I would massage my mom and ask her what is the next number. There were times when I forgot but whenever I ask, my parents would always tell me the number again. I may be very little but I remember the day I counted til 100! I was on the bed with my mom. Massaging her calves. When I reached 100, I was sooooo thrilled! That's how I started counting! May not be the conventional and formal way but it worked!

Addition and Subtraction
As a kid, I never quite played any computer games. But the first (and possibly the only computer game) I played was a game of maths; addition and subtraction. There were apples, oranges, balloons and maybe many more but I only remember those. Some examples would be 5 - 3. The CRT screen would show 5 balloons. Then a stick would pop 3 balloons and ask for the answer. I would then count the number of balloons left and key in the answer. So kewl!(I was only 4 remember? :p) Other than that, my dad would sometimes ask me "What is 1+1?" I had asked, how to count that. He answered somewhere along the line of "What is the next number after 1?". When it is subtraction, he told me it is the opposite so I would have to count backwards. *I hated that a lot!* Guess that is not the worst. I had the worst trouble when the sum is something like " __ + 3 = 10". Urrgghhh!!! I couldn't finish my homework til late at night so before going to school, he would take me to his office for awhile and make me finish my homework. I counted and rubbed the answers a millions of times coz he would check my answer and tell me it is wrong. So frustrating. There were times I didn't even count but I guessed instead. Hahaha! He told me to minus the number. I didn't understand why I had to minus when I see the + sign in the sum. LOL! When I got what he meant, I asked which number to subtract with which coz I got clueless after subtracting a small number with a big one. *When you are so lil, you don't know if there are any numbers before 0...like c'mon, how can you visualize -ve numbers?How do you put that in the forms of apples and oranges?* hahaha After sometime, I got it and never had troubles answering those.

Multiplication and Division
When I entered Primary 1, I was 6. I was made to know the tables of 2 multiplication before I even entered Primary 1 coz my dad said I will need it when I enter primary school. Gosh! 2 is easy...3 is crazy....4 is boring..5 is lovely...10 is wonderful...so is 11. 12...I don't even want to think about it but when I learnt 12 by heart, I feel like a big kid and obviously smart! LOL! I was probably 7 or 8 when I got to 12 multiplication table. My dad made me learn the table by heart. He made me recite the tables everyday in the study room. There was once when I was soooo happy that I learnt the sequence of numbers in the table top-down. He told me to recite backwards....I went silent. He then threw me questions like "What is 3 times 4?". I would pause and recite in my heart the table of 3....haihzzz. He said "Slow!" I said I have the answer. He said he wants is on the spot. *sweat* After some time, I mastered it and answered him right away everytime he asks. Like that isn't enough, he twisted the question; "What times 3 gives you 15?". I went speechles.........If he asks the question on my way to school, he said he wants it when he picks my up from school. If I still couldn't answer, he would tell me to learn the tables again and that he wants the answer when he comes back from work. From there, we got to division. Wasn't easy but I made it. *Phew!*

Telling the Time
My parents strongly dissaprove digital watches when I was a kid. I always envy my friends and cousins who have digital watches. Whenever I asked for one, my dad would say the watches are for people who do not know how to tell the time. He told me I will have one when I could tell the time well. He bought a cardboard clock and move the hands of the clock. I was so thankful there were only 2 hands; hour and minute. On his watch, there are 3....seconds hand. 5 multiplication table was very handy! It was also my favourite table so it was cool just that when the hands overlapped, I got a lil bit confused. I would look at the clock on the wall, squint my eyes a lil to make sure I count the number right, run to my mom and tell her the time. Sometimes I got it right. Sometimes I go it wrong but I was determined to learn coz I wanna grow up so much and be smart! Duhhh!lol After sometime, I was good at it. Didn't get any digital watches but I was happy with my analog watch coz I have a watch. It was a Mickey Mouse watch. :) Did I still envy kids with digital watches? A lil coz it seemed cool but deep inside I know they may not know how to tell the time as well as I do! =)

Counting Money
Having gone to a small private school, food was provided. There was no need for any coins or purses. I never bothered about having money until when I was 7. My mom started teaching me how to count money. I asked her why she is teaching me how to count money. She said it is essential coz I will need to buy my own food when I go to school in Malaysia. She laid the coins on the study desk and showed me how to tell how much is one coin worth. She didn't tell me to count but she would say if a cake is 30cents and you gave the hawker 50cents, how much should the hawker give you back. I didn't know how she or I did it but it went very smooth. I learned without much effort. Few days we "played" the game. Was fun! *Maybe coz I didn't know going back to Malaysia sucks....*

Going Deeper
There isn't a day when there is not Maths...rite? When I was 8, we returned to KL. We used to be on the highway sometimes. Maths game started again..besides ensuring I still know my tables, my dad would tell me to look at the board on the highway. He would tell me the destination place and I was required to look at the km stated next to it. That was easy. He would then ask me (say we have 150km more to go), "We have 150more kilometers to go, we are now going at 100km per hour. How long more do we need to travel to reach?" Mine you...Singapore is quite a long journey................there were many signboards and figures *sweat* If that isn't enough, after I got my answer right, he would tell me to look at the time and tell him what time we will reach based on my calculation...sobsob...I used to tell him "I haven't got to that part in school." He told me "I want you to learn in advance." He's an engineer and his father used to be a an army. *sweat* There were times I pretended to sleep.....hahahaha The Malaysia school syllabus only got to that when I was in Primary 5 or 6.

I learnt a lot in a car. I counted. I learnt tables. I learnt how to spell. It wasn't easy but it did me good and I dare say I was a smart kid. =p When you are "stuck" in the car, there is nothing much you can do except to keep digging for answers. I hate being in the car with my dad sometimes when I was a kid but he did me a lot of favour! I'm happy...until this very moment I'm recoding this and will always be. =)

There are a lot more memories on my early education...and how I struggled. Will post at another time.

Dear Elena,
If you are reading this, thanks for triggering this post. It makes me reminisce the times I had with my parents when we were just a lil family and how my dad spent sooo much effort educating me. Trust me, even my mom didn't have a say when I was made to stay up til morning to study or understand my homework. I will write more on my early education when time permits. It would be great to capture all this while I still remember. As I mentioned in my opening paragraph, I have no kids but I was one so I hope you could find some ideas with your lil boy. Kids these days may not be the same anymore but one fine day, they will definitely be super thankful! As for me, good luck to myself. I'm not even married yet but when I have my own kids someday, I would love to give atleast the same level of concern and concentration on my kids' education. Won't be easy in our busy lifestyle and demands at work but I hope I could. =) *hugzzz*

-Ruz-

Why One Should Be In Bed By 10pm!

After yearsssss of working, only last night I got the chance to sleep at 10pm! Such an awesome feeling I get when I woke up this morning at 6:45am. It was showering outside and I read a chapter of Happiness in Hard Times by Andrew Matthews. Though it was still quite dark outside, I feel FRESH! The sound of my dad teasing my mom while having his breakfast is wonderful too. Things are well when you get enough rest.

I walked on the threadmill for a bit. Then vacummed the house. Chatted with my mom a lil. Then hit the bed to chat with my prince charming a little. By the time I hit the shower, it was already 10:15am. On other days, that will be the time I finally get to open my eyes. Not only that, I will be waking up to sore body and (sadly..still) fatigue.

After last night, I hope there will be another night when I can get a great good nite rest!

Oh so colourful!

I sometimes view the analytics of my blog..ya know..just for the fun of it. Well, why blog if it isn't fun? :p
If i could paint the week, I'll have to pick solemn colours as the week started with sickness. Was in bed on Monday and Tuesday. When I got back to work Wednesday onwards, the week simple suck....don't bother asking me why coz I don't wanna revisit the week. Hope the solemness won't linger til next week.

In the virtual world..or rather my blog, it seems to be preffy colourful. I've seen fractions of visitors' origins but maybe this the the first time I've seen this many fractions and of coz COLOURS! *Can't help wondering if they will run out of colours if there are more countries popping out*

Random Me-Me

Appearance
[ ] I have/had piercings besides the ears.
[ ] I want piercings besides the ears.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/had braces.
[ ] I have more than two piercings.

Embarrassment
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[x] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[x] I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I’ve had my pants rip in public.
[x] I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt.

Health
[ ] I’ve gotten stitches.
[ ] I’ve broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I’ve had serious surgery.
[ ] I’ve had chicken pox.

Travel
[ ] I’ve been to Florida.
[x] I’ve driven/ridden over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[ ] I’ve been to Canada.
[ ] I’ve been to Cuba.
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I’ve been to Ottawa.
[ ] I’ve been to the Caribbean.
[ ] I’ve been to Europe.

Experiences
[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I’ve slapped someone.
[ ] I’ve kissed someone underwater.
[ ] I’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[ ] I’ve chugged something.
[x] I’ve crashed a car / been in a car crash.
[ ] I’ve been skiing.
[x] I’ve been in a musical.
[ ] I’ve auditioned for something.
[x] I’ve been on stage.
[ ] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] I’ve pranked someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.

Honesty / Crime
[ ] I’ve been arrested.
[ ] I’ve been threatened to be arrested.
[x] I’ve broken a law.
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out.
[x] I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I’ve been in a fist fight.

Death
[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I’ve seen someone/something die.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
[x] I’ve thought about suicide before.
[ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I’m obsessed with anime/manga.
[ ] I collected comic books.
[x] I own a lot of makeup.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on E-Bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I thrive on compliments.
[x] I thrive on hate.

Random
[x] I can sing well.
[ ] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don’t kill bugs / don’t like to kill them.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I’m a morning person.
[ ] I’m a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[x] I care about grammar.
[ ] I love spam.
[ ] I’ve copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
[ ] I bake well
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can’t sleep if there’s a spider in the room.
[x] I’m really ticklish.
[x] I like white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I’m good at remembering faces.
[ ] I’m good at remembering names.
[ ] I’m good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All my answers were and will be totally honest.

People
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic.
[x] call me fat.
[ ] say I’m skinny.
[x] say I’m ugly.
[x] say I’m pretty.
[x] spread rumors about me.
[x] force me to eat.
[x] say I eat too much.
[x] say I eat too little.
[ ] don’t know I have an eating disorder.

Eating
[ ] I’ve lost weight.
[x] I’ve gained weight.
[ ] I’m at my thinnest.
[x] I’m at my biggest.
[ ] I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back.
[x] My weight affects my mood.
[x] I weigh myself daily.
[x] I’m jealous of everyone skinnier than me.
[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry.
[x] I get depressed after eating.
[ ] I diet.
[ ] I’m vegan/vegetarian.
[x] I’ve skipped a meal.
[x] I’ve thrown food away.
[x] I’ve spat food out.
[ ] I’ve taken diet pills.
[ ] I’ve used laxatives.
[ ] I’ve purged.
[x] I exercise.
[ ] I exercise so I can eat.
[ ] I work out daily.
[ ] I’ve fainted from exhaustion.

Family
[ ] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[x] I’ve planned to run away from home before.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want kids.
[ ] I’ve had kids.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.

Relationships
[ ] I’m single.
[x] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’m a swinger.
[x] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[ ] I have/had a friend with benefits.
[ ] I’ve hooked up with someone in little or no notice.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve physically cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I’ve mentally cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced.
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[x] Someone has had feelings for me when I didn’t have them back.
[ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[x] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

Sexualtiy
[x] I’m a cuddler.
[x] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[ ] I’ve kissed a stranger.

Bad times
[ ] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty.
[ ] I’ve been diagnosed with clinical depression at some point.
[ ] I have/had anxiety problems.
[ ] I shut others out when I’m upset.
[ ] I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day before.
[ ] I’ve hurt myself on purpose before.
[ ] I am / have been addicted to self-harm.
[x] I’ve woken up crying.
[x] I’ve cried myself to sleep.
[ ] I’ve plotted revenge.

I’ve done
[ ] Weed
[ ] Diet pills
[ ] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[ ] Cocaine
[x] I keep my habits a secret.
[ ] I have a diet blog.
[x] My choices are for me.
[ ] My choices are for someone else.
[x] My choices are to prove myself.

Series of Unfortunate Events on a Tuesday

I don't remember getting up from the wrong side of the bed in the morning. I don't remember doing anything unusual at all to get my day started but it simply wasn't my day.

1. Nausea in the morning.
2. Almost left the house without wearing a watch. (Yes,this is something not right for me.)
3. Bumped into someone's car and triggered the other car's alarm...
4. Didn't lock my car after I parked my car and left for dinner.
5. Hit the curb when I parked my car back at the office after dinner.
6. Had mount point issues in the servers I was supposed to patch.
7. Had patch installer issues....it didn't detect my servers. *sweat*
8. Number 6 and 7 held me back at work.
9. The construction worker decided to close the road I normally used to send my colleague home; I got lost! Mind you, it was alredy 11:45pm.
10. Reached home. No parking...had to park many blocks away from my block.
11. Almost reached my floor, saw a huge moth at the stairs. *scared!*
12. Realized I did not bring back my new shower gels I've been wanting to use to wash away dissappointments. Called a colleague who happened to still be in the office and requested him to take 'em back.
13. A stupid insect appeared in my room when all I wanted to do is fly away to my dreamland.
14. My bf gave an answer which I hope to negate.

I hope item number 14 stops the series.......May tomorrow be a better day. And yeah, it shed a tear.

Why Is My Blackberry slow?

I've gotten my Blackberry Bold early this year from my parents. Recently, after much thought I reactivated the Blackberry Plan and FINALLY upgraded from Prepaid to Postpaid service. (After 9years that is...they should pay me for loyalty. =p)

Since Monday, my phone has been oddly slow. Never happened before and it is getting very annoying so thank you to Mr.Google, he saved my temper.

The following link is very helpful!
http://www.blackberryforums.com/mac-users-corner/177304-bold-slow-navigate-system.html

Apparently, we need to clear cache. LOL!
The normal solution is always restart the phone and of course (the most popular solution) re-insert the battery. Doing those will help most of the the time but it is not so great when do not really know what is going on in the system (as in the root cause of the problem). Bear with me a lil while if you find this very techy.

All I did was to hold the Alt key and press LGLG. The phone event log will then be displayed. I wished I could attach what is looks like but I'm not quite sure if BB allows printscreen. Will find out later. Tap on the BB key and choose the option to clear the log and VIOLA! System back to normal....ok...phone back to normal. =p

Many may be super expert in BB navigation and administration but I'm quite a newbie. Still exploring and testing its' capabilities. So far. It is kewl! ;) Gotta thank my parents again!

Btw, to reboot : Alt+Cap+Del ;) Will post more when I find out more on BB tips and tricks!

Complimentary Visit to Rene Furterer

Got a chance to experience Rene Furterer for Free. Thank you Accenture! Won a complimentary Hair and Scalp Analysis worth RM80 and on top of that, gets a sample the Myrrhea set range.

As usual, appointment need to be made prior to visit. Booked mine at 11am. By 11am they should be more that ready to accept customers I believe. Anyhow, the consultant was nice. We started with the hair and scalp treatment analysis.

The Analysis
Honestly, it is pretty scarry. I've never seen my scalp or hair texture so upclose! The most I've seen is just like the rest of you; on the mirror! There are 3 parts of the analysis. I can't recall the first one but the last 2 ones are for scalp and hair. I gotta say technology is amazing! I was first registered into their system. Then for each test, the consultant took a shot from 3 parts of the head; front, side and back. After each shot, the image was saved and further explanation was given as to what is shown in the screen. The consultant also explained which product would be suitable for my hair and scalp condition. I'm glad to know that there is no problem with my scalp and hair health!

The Treatment
The complimentary treatment is Complex 5. The treatment started of with neck and shoulder massage. This is to promote better blood circulcation. When done, he applied the essential oil to my scalp and then it on for about 15minutes. The consultant was nice; he used the shampoo suitable for my hair instead of the one which came with the treatment package. When all is done, serum was used before and after blowdry. I normally just let my hair dry on its own so blow drying once in awhile shouldn't do my hair any harm. Compared to the normal hairdresser, the consultant is gentle when he blewdry my hair and no!I didn't feel the heat on my scalp when he did. That's comforting. Maybe because he knows about hair and scalp care.

The visit didn't do much damage to me. I only bought 1 essential oil and a tube of shampoo. Should last quite some time as the essential oil is only used once a week and the shampoo twice a week. Apart from that, the complimentary set was also given. I asked for an extra sample and the consultant gave me another tube of no rinse hair conditioner. =)

Will I visit them again? Yes, for my hair and scalp treatment. Long hair needs extra care. ;) I was worried about my hair when I see atleast one hair on the floor when I brush it. I asked the consultant, he said it is normal to lose 40-100 hair per day. Guess mine is very obvious because it is long and of coz BLACK and THICK! The width of my hair is healthy. =) Tell me, who needs rebonding and colouring? =p
 
For those who has never heard of Rene Furterer, click here to be introduced.

Kiehl's World Environment Day

Kiehl's celebrated World Environment Day 2010 by giving away recycle bags exclusively designed by the Editors of Glam, Female, NuYou and Eh! For every 2 products purchased, one bag is given. All the bags look pretty esp the one by Glam and Female.

Based on my previous post Kiehler I bought 2 products but not given the bag. My bad. I didn't find out how to get the bag when I bought the products. Guess the salesperson forgot too. I only found out when I checked out their fanpage on Facebook.

One of the admins saw my comment and I was lucky enough to still get one bag reserved! How nice :))

Now that I've gotten my bag, I can show it off! =p For more pictures on Kiehl's World Environment Day, click here.

( Pretty eh? )

Kiehl's Official URL :
http://www.kiehls.com/

Kiehl's Malaysia Fanpage on Facebook :
http://www.facebook.com/myKIEHLS

Low Mentality

What has the world come into? By the time I'm 30, will all the girls be in lingerie when they leave their house?
I have outgrown my favourite pair of blue jeans. A pair of blue jeans is something essential in everyone's wardrobe (Yes, this includes the males!)

I dropped by KLCC to accompany one of my bestfriends to shop. I wasn't really hunting for a paor of jeans but when Padini is just around the corner, I decided to drop by. Went through a pile of blue jeans and found all of 'em are low-rise. It couldn't be all low-rise, right? I asked the salesperson "Do you have any jeans which is not low-rise?". He replied "No". I was in disbelief so I asked again to confirm. Same answer.

That's so freaking odd. How can you not have anything else? This is the reason why we see butt cracks everywhere. How disgusting. C'mon! Isn't it enoughh that you sell short and tight tees these days? Or even sheer or lowcut? So frustrating. I don't like showing my butt to the world and I still have respect for myself if not for others. On top of that, I really do not feel comfortable about my male family members and loved ones  to be seeing all that ugly sight. Go ahead. Call me old-fashioned or conservative! Atleast I respect myself. =p Whatever happens to modesty, eh?

p/s: Not low enough? Get a super low-rise pair of pants.

A voice of a REAL woman.
http://rosedesrochers.todays-woman.net/2010/05/18/butt-crack-attack/
A girl who probably is sick of low-rise.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/malingering/74011707/

Low and Slow

Urghhh! The connection is ridiculously slow today. Is it as sick as I am? :(
I've been trying to load some pages and it either make me wait for ages or it times out.
FYI, I'm now in a telco provider office. Ironic....

Nose feels stuffy. Head feels heavy. Heart wants to be in bed and read all the books in the to-be-read pile.
Feeling pretty low...guess the mood is off this week. Mr.Work is not helping. Bought some books. They cheered me up. I need them!!!!

Weekend is coming sooooonnn!!!
I have these in mind.
- Caramel pudding
- Moist choc cake (if I'm not out with the girls for a slumber party)
- Parmesan oregano bread (fell in love with the one from Subway. Can't keep going to only get the bread rite?)
- Redeem the Rene Furterer voucher I won
- Make some space for new books..space is scarce now :(
- Get my laundry done
- Update my book blog with more book reviews particularly for my very own Roald Dahl Bookathon
- Go to Maxis and change from prepaid to postpaid (this is still in deep consideration)

All/half of the above is only feasible if I'm well and enthusiasm level is not low.

Just Another Morning

My brother asked quite a serious question when I was about to start my breakfast earlier today.
"What would happen if one week prior to the wedding day, the bride confessed that she has someone else?" I dunno what triggered him to ask that question. My answer? "Call off the wedding." He then said  the groom must be very devastated. Quite a serious topic as a starter. But nevertheless, I continued the converstation. I said that it is better that she confessed and call off their wedding rather than continue living in a lie after the real thing is done. The longer it is kept, the worse the pain and damage will be. Plus end now when it is not too late...not end it when you already have bank loans and kids together.

I then tossed a question back to him. "Wouldn't it be a lot worse when you're already married to the man and few years down the lane, he confessed he loves someone else. And that mind you happens when you already think u have a stable life and yea..maybe a kid of two." His typical-male mind responded "Well, it is normal for a guy to do that but a woman?" I said too bad for the guy if the guy is nice when the girl is the bad one but I guess it is quite a lesson for guys when girls turn rotten. As much as I pity the nice guys and curse the bad girls, I can't help saying that both genders can be equally mean and MOST(not ALL) of the time, guys are the ones who drifted away and forget about the passion and love. How sad but I guess it happens..and yes, it is scary. Worst of all, the guy would drift out completely and leave the woman with all around the world to handles; from kids,food,house and all. How selfish. Is it really worthied to give it all away and hurt someone you once loved soooo deeply to be with another who suddenly juz pop out of nowhere. Is lust so important? Again, I do not say that this happen ALL the times and I am not saying that men is to be blamed or they are the ones who are always bad. Men sometimes are unfortunate enough to happen to end up with some rotten girls. =/

I added, the moment a woman decided to accept a guy's hand in marriage and promise to live with him ever after, she also believes and hopes she could live happily ever after with her one and only husband. When a woman vows, she believes her spouse feels the same and eventhough fairy tale may be too much to as for, it never hurt to be halfway from what the fairy tale is. The moment she gives, she gives it all. Now I really wonder if men feels the same way when they actually think about proposing to a woman he loves or claims he loves. The moment a woman gets pregnant, her everything changes too; phyisical, emotion and no doubt hormones. That is a lot. I hope this is all appreciated.

Our conversation didn't go any further but I told him, marriage is not an easy thing. Why commit when you know you can't? Don't hurt others. Though our conversation ended, my mind drifted away...deeper into the marriage subject. Come to think of it, it is pretty scary. How do I know if you are really the one? How can I know you feel the same way I do towards you? What guarantee do I have to give away my all? Does it mean anything to the man for me to accept him in my life forever? Would I be his only one til death do us part? Would he do his part to improve our lives? Would he think it is easy for me to accept all including his way of live, mentality and his family? When it all got clouded in my head, it put it all aside and will think when the time comes.

Kiehler

If there is one thing Kiehl's has become, it has become my favourite. I don't believe in splurging onto skin products. I believe in what works well for my skin. With that, my moisturizer and my facial cleanser remains the same since I was in 13. Others like make-ups, lipbalms and facial masque are added values.

I started of trying Kiehl's when I started worrying about my panda eyes. (Thanks Mr.Work) When I turned 25 recently, I know I'm 5 years to 30 =| (Can't we not go there?...) I guess the number is scarier than actually being there. Besides dark circles, I am becoming more aware of wrinkles specifically crow feet. I know it is all unavoidable as it is part of nature and yeah, there is no way we can turn back time and lie about our age. Anyhow, I believe this is a good time to start as I've not started earlier.

I can see that Kiehl's specializes on facial care and a lil bit of hair care. Don't bother looking for cosmetics there...OK? Why cover when you can fix, right?  My last visit to Kiehl's got me home with a Line-Reducing Eye-Brightening Concentrate. Expensive? Can't remember the exact price but it is about RM175. Bought it in April. Now we are in June, I believe I still have some to be used atleast til mid this month if not more. Worthied? You do the math.

I've been looking into the mirror and see that apart from dark circles, there is something else I need to care for; the puffy areas around my eyes! See, there are just sooooo many things a girl gotta think and care about and it all comes with a price and obviously DISCIPLINE.

Today, I dropped by KLCC to look for a lipbalm and something for the eye puffiness. (REALLY, thanks Mr.Work!) My lips can't deal with perfume....so too bad for me. No cherry/strawberry or any sort of perfumes content for me. =| So far, the lipstick which could work well with me is from M.A.C. I'm yet to try Bobbi Brown or Stage or ..... (it needs money and heart to try it out...it is a lot of risk for my lips to take sometimes). Anyhow, I ended up with what I needed, a lipbalm and an eye de-puffer.

Decisions could be quite hard. I was torn between 3 lipbalms; Original, lightly-tinted and mint. All the same texture. Price difference is minimal. I ended up with mint. I love mint. Mint is always refreshing. It is also their limited edition product this year...apparently.

I thought of getting a stronger formulae for my dark circles; not that the current one doesn't help but I can't help wanting something more and of coz stronger....but the one that I have is the strongest. Can't doubt that. Can feel the serum reacting as soon as I apply it. Nothing more a product can help with if I do not get enough sleep, right? So far it is doing fine. Expectation met. =) Hope the 2 new products will help me with my lips and the puffy area around my eyes.

If you are terrified to enter the store, don't be. The salespersons are friendly and they DO NOT force you to buy. Ask for what you want. If there is one thing Kiehl's knows best, it has got to be the power of giving. More often than not, you will definitely walk out of the store with samples. I see it as something very smart; marketing-wise. One of them must have put themselves in the customers' shoes. Why would you wanna buy products you're not sure of right? Why can't you try others by the same brand if one of their products is working well for you right? Nothing is wrong with giving a lil bit more. I guess they would say, "More often than not, customers come back to us wanting the fullsize of an item after they have sampled it." ;)

Expensive? Not really. The lipbalm is only RM35. The eye de-puffer is only RM75. Since Father's Day is just around the corner, you will get RM10 off for every RM100 purchase. Not too bad at all. As for the first product I bought, if you have not calculated, April to June is 3months. RM175/3 = RM58.33 per month. Expensive? My skin is more expensive. C'mon. Be real. We are not even talking about La Mer here. La Mer......I'm yet to have that much bucks =| Someday......................

Check out the cute paperbags! ^__^

The Very First Single Movie Ticket Bought

This may be normal to frequent movie-goers or movie fanatics. As for me, I love watching movies but I do not watch it too often coz most of the time, I'd pick reading over watching movies. To my little bunch of friends, the know that I will object to the idea of watching a movie when I've not met them in the longest time. I started REALLY watching movies in the cinema when I started dating my boyfriend. No doubt there are times I object watching movies due to time limitation; I'd rather walk around, talk and catch up. *you get the idea*

Ever since my bf went away, I seldom watch anymore movies. Guess I must have been busy or the feeling just doesn't come. I would be lying if I say that there is nothing I would like to watch but frustrations come with it when I don't get to watch it OR my bf watches w/o me. Selfish? I don't think so. I'm just so used to watch movies with him. Watching romance is a lot nicer when you have a companion. Let me know if you disagree. All these makes me forget all about movies. I barely even go to the cinema portals. *Why tempt when you can't have it rite? I don't like pulling myself down and live with frustrations!*

What I did today is what I've always wanted to do; experience watching movie alone! Odd? Ordinary? I was divided between Shrek 4 and Letters to Juliet. I picked Shrek 4 in 3D =) How I felt lining up alone? Nothing out of ordinary...maybe because I don't see couples being ridiculously annoying in front / around me. I was surround by a bunch of girls who couldn't decide what they wanna watch and some kids. The line wasn't long so nothing was in the context of toturing me.

Didn't get the center seat but managed to get a seat towards the end of the center cluster. 3 empty seats; I picked the middle one...just so that no silly couples will sit nearby! (forgodsake, I'm watching Shrek...not some Romeo&Juliet movie) Went into the cinema right away my ticket was printed. Picked up the 3D glasses alone. Wasn't odd. Went to my seat alone. No one picked up my bag to put it on the floor. I gotta say I got into the scene right on time. The moment I sat down, the dreamworks logo was displayed onto the screen.

Did I laughed during the show?
I did.

Did it feel odd being alone?
Nope.

Did I enjoy the movie?
Of coz!!! It is Shrek!!!

Would I do it again?
Definitely; IF I have the time and chance to. =p

p/s: After tonite, I wont' have to wonder how it feels to watch a movie alone anymore coz I'VE DONE IT! Not much diff compared to shopping and eating alone. It feels normal. I dunno about romantic movies but Shrek doesn't make me feel alone. *ngehngehngeh*

3 Years done

3 years may sound like a very long time. 3 years is the number of years I've spent to get my degree done. Long? I guess not quite compared to other fields. Let's see how much progress I've made since the point when I started working.

Spent 4months in a jap company as a tester. Pay was good. Distance isn't. Work-life balance was definitely there (coz it wasn't dark everytime i leave the office). Pretty much grasp the cycle of testing from planning to executing. Multi-tasked to 80%. Awesome 22inch" monitor.

Then....the jump happened. Flew to the company I'm with now. Fit in better. Spent a year and 2 months as a tester. Started managing defects seriously. There were few hectic times but it was fun..no doubt frustrating at times but it is all gewd.

Sent to another client for a couple of months...yes,another testing assignment. Mission was to get the client back on track in the testing schedule. Though short duration, I saw "colours" as another girl and I was somehow "lent" to the client. Fantastic experience.

Spent few months in the wonderful KLCC office. Lunch is about Kinokuniya and Subway. Had to live on basic pay. Be stuck at a nearby traffic light for atleast 3redlights before I actually get the chance to make a lil u-turn. Lived on basic salary but still had the crave for books and of coz clothes! Started blogging. Read quite a number of books. Did a number of online trainings. It was AWESOME!

Fun ended.

Posted to where I am now. Was clueless. No longer a tester but landed a role I can never imagine myself in; TA. Whoaaaaa! Dealt with few monsters. Patience level grew. Ignore button grew bigger at times to maintain patience level. =p Quite a one-man show back then but it is much better now; team is bigger and many has picked up more stuff. Fantastic? Awesome? Hmm...I'll say "Great!". My respond used to be "Still breathing and still alive" whenever anyone asks me how I am. The reply only came after a few moments of pause. Apparently, it is normal. I've bumped into some ppl who asks others the same q and I heard my answer being repeated. It is some kind of epidemic within the project i guess. LOL!

Along the way..besides WORK, there are fun stuff!
I've tried emceeing and actually enjoyed it...so did it maybe...3 times? It is fun.
Then I somehow got into the band..and the band is AWEEESSSOOMMMEEEE. =)
Best part of the 1st 3 years out of uni!

During lunch today, I googled to see what the company has or is still looking for and bumped into the following requirements tagged to my role. Lemme see how many of it I have.

• Supported in the capacity of Siebel Administration from end to end
• Installed Siebel from grounds up
• Setup and configure Siebel components
• Performed Siebel deployment
• Start / stop Siebel server
• Troubleshoot Siebel TA issues & error log analysis
• Experience with using Unix platform (HP-UX would be ideal)
• Basic database troubleshooting skills (preferably on Oracle database)
• Siebel module that is preferred: eCommunications (version 8.1. would be ideal)
• Siebel performance tuning (reviewing DB performance, identifying source of poor codes, app tier tuning like max / min tasks )
• Experience with Siebel integration with Avaya CTI
• Experience with Unix / Windows scripting
• Experience with a Production Support role for Siebel application
• Experience in a telecommunications environment will make you a top candidate for this position.
• 2-6 years of relevant experience
• Proven success in contributing to a team-oriented environment
• Proven ability to work creatively and analytically in a problem-solving environment
• Excellent communication (written and oral) and interpersonal skills
• Recognized University Degree
• Ability to meet travel requirements, when applicable

 Out of the above, I only do not have one of it. Not too bad,huh? ;)

That's the career-wise.

Life? Am I anywhere in life? Well, I bought a car. Does that count? Sure it does. I still keep in touch with my best friends everytime I get the chance to. That is something huge when you spend more than 80% of your lifetime with your colleagues in the office. I...mmmm am still reading and buying books. =p Now have some interest in baking and stuff. Patience level has gone higher. Heart could have grown harder. Head is closer to steel. Enthusiasm could be low on some elements but still fine. Other than that....everything is pretty much the same.......S.T.A.T.I.C.

On the side note...(or is this the foot already? :p), if anyone has the above mentioned qualities, kindly send me ur resume. =)

3-Days Weekends!

Could someone please tell me how and who came up with the idea that weekends only have 2days? How is work-life balance even possible with only 2 out of 7 days being weekends? *Sigh!* At the current settings, the load is heavier on the work scale. *Soooo much for balance, eh?*

3days in a weekend starting from Friday would be the greatest ever!

Friday - Spring cleaning day.

Saturday - Shopping day! Buying groceries day and etc.

Sunday - REST day. Enjoy-being-at-home day. Baking day. Eat-at-home day.

Lovely, ain't it?

Can someone pleaseeeee do something about this? Just because it has been set centuries ago, it doesn't mean it can't be changed!

Heart Kettle ^_^

Bumped into this cute hearty kettle!

(Source : http://www.2decoratecakes.com)

Price: RM152.00
Would surely be a lovely item for my own kitchen(in my own house of coz!) in future! :)

722

What comes to your mind when someone says "722"?

Simple question..many answers.
It is quite a fun way to see what someone normally associates his/her thoughts with.

One colleague jokingly said room number. :p

Lemme summarize the answers I've got from others who are in various area of interests.
A HR friend of mine : Plate number
A manager : Bus number
A DBA friend : 722am
A trainer : Food (this guy was super duper hungry...and was still at work)
My geeky friends : UNIX permission level

Well, I was referring to 7:22PM when I said it to a colleague. My boyfriend said DATE. :)
The DBA said 722am and not unix permission level because he normally use 755. =p

Some others belong to the Nothing group.....

RM2 Meal in KLCC

Dream on. Not quite possible unless u settle with a little bun of a pack of sushi from the supermarket.

I was in Kino as always; never a time I went to KLCC without dropping by Kino. =p The owner must be very happy to hear this. teehee

Anyhow, I was browsing some RM9.90 cooking books at its stand when a girl maybe about 15years old popped up. She interrupted my dreamworld in books.

Girl : Kak. Kak. Do you have two ringgit? I've not eaten.

I gave her a look from top to toe. She is double my size (she would be tripple if I were the size when I started workin'), wore an old roundneck black t-shirt, a pair of pants(can't really tell the colour..it was about grey...and of coz dirty and old-looking) and a pair of black slippers. I gave her a good look and saw that her toenails are not even cut. She's not retarded in any ways but I really do not know what's the story behind it. I thought of just ignoring her.

She walked few steps away. I looked away. After some lil thoughts (what IF she is REALLY hungry and super poor...rite?), I opened my handbag. She turned and walked a few steps towards me. I opened my wallet. No two ringgit. Just one ringgit.

I gave her another look and said "You know what? Take this.". Hope she gets to do what she wants with the money. May not be much but I hope it helps. =/ Btw,like I've mentioned in my first few sentences, there is no way one can get a proper meal at two ringgit in KLCC. She said "Thank you" and left. Within seconds, she was nowhere in sight. Guess she ran all the way to the foodcourt or something.

I toild my boyfriend about this just few minutes before I started drafting this post. He asked "Didn't you follow that girl?". I replied "No.". As much as I'd like to help her, I'm pretty scared myself.

What if she asked for money just to check out if I've got money at all? What if she has other friends waiting for me and stalk me? And then rob me? You can never tell. Can't you. Anyhow, none of the listed What-Ifs happened just now. =) Being a freak, I clutched my handbang tightly after I handed her the money, checked my pockets for my keys and phones. Guess it is hard to trust anyone at all.

Mmm...now that I'm safe at home, I wonder why did she only ask for RM2.
1. Was she only short of RM2?
2. Did she has a plan to walk around and ask RM2 from other people too?

Since I do not read the news much, I wouldn't know if
1. She ran away from home.
2. Victim of domestic abuse.
3. A criminal.

Anyhow, it all doesn't matter. I'm glad she asked for money and not steal from anyone or anywhere. See, if everyone supports other people...I believe the crime rate would eventually decrease. I see nothing wrong if the girl walks aruond and ask for RM2 everytime she bumps into a person. *Hope she doesn't ask the wrong person. =/*

p/s: Sorry. This is meant to be a very short post with very little story in it. Anyhow, I miss writing stuff that I need to elaborate on almost anything I could. LOL!

STRICTLY For WOMEN : Mooncup

Alternative to tampons and sanitary pads. Reusable. Environment friendly. No dyes. No chemicals. Latex-free, hypoallergenic and many more. Wanna know what I'm talking about or wanna know what is a Mooncup? Click here.

I'm not too sure how much it is here in Malaysia but I bumped into a blog where you can buy it online; RM110.00 Apparently it is the only one stockist in Malaysia so far. Visit http://www.tinytapir.com/category.php?msg=Item+Added+to+Cart&category_id=79&item_id=358



Mooncup Official Site :
http://www.mooncup.co.uk/

About Mooncup :
http://www.mooncup.co.uk/about-the-mooncup.html

Benefits :
http://www.mooncup.co.uk/about-the-mooncup/benefits.html

IF somehow anyone happens to see it on the shelves at other than the location I've mentioned above, please let me know where and how much it is.

Reviews on Malaysian Babes Forum :
http://www.malaysianbabes.net/forum/index.php?/topic/3825-product-mooncup/

Beauty of the word ALONE

Despite the contrary view, the word alone does not necessarily relate to the word loner. It is time that everyone of us view this word from a different angle and see it in a different light.

Being alone does not make you loner. In fact, it could actually show that you are independent and happy. Well, I am not saying that everyone should be alone. That would be against the human nature as we are all made in pairs. Else God won't create Eve for Adam. ;)

Heard of the following quotations before?
"Eagles fly solo" -Unknown-

I normally say this to myself; "I was in my mother's womb alone. Brought to this world alone. I survived."

I am not indicating that I do not need anyone in my life but all of us could actually do well with some time to ourselves. This is what I call me-time. I love hanging out with my friends and spending time with my family but quality me-time is essential for me to keep going and keep myself motivated.

Why me-time is great?
1. It helps you to keep in touch with yourself.
2. It helps you to look at yourself and really identify what is not right.
3. People will most of the time disappoint you and break your heart.
4. Having expectations set on others are no fun. Setting expectations on ourselves goes a loooooonnnggg way.
5. It is zen. ^_^
6. You need not deal with others and free to go with your own will.
7. Things are a lot less complicated when we deal only with one person. :p

To my dear friends, I need you. I love having you guys. I believe most of you love your me-time too. ;) It is great to share our fraction of life with friends, right? Hope you feel the same.

There are times when you REALLY need the other someone to make something in your life happens and let me tell you that that moment sucks and hurts big time. In the end, I know I will have to find me own way to deal with the disappointment so that I can be happy. Why let that lil someone bring you down? You are worth your feelings.

Anyhow, you belong to yourself. Only you can decide how to make yourself happy because you know yourself better than anyone else. Your life is yours. You share it but never give it away. That is how life is. =)

Please take note that I DO NOT write this out of sorrow. I write it to bring myself up and set aside some disappointments I am feeling right now; too personal to be broadcasted. You can continue disappointing me but I have already made up my mind; not to let others bring me down. With that, I have no expectations set what-so-ever because it will hurt me I know.

When I don't mention about something, it shows that it is not significant.
When it is not significant, I no longer think about it.
I no longer think about it because I either don't want it anymore or I do not want it from you anymore. What I want most is to be happy. If no one could make me happy, I will find ways to make myself happy. I know somewhere out there, I have a bunch of friends who can make me happy and I'm grateful. I know for sure I am happy with my family though it may be difficult at times. Guess nothing is as easy in life. =

Never too late for a resolution

Only 16th February in 2010. That is roughly 47 days since 2009. After Feb, we have 10 more months to go til 2010 ends. Gosh! REALLY can't wait! Guess life will transform by then; whether it goes as planned or it will have a twisted end that will change many lives. Guess we'll just have to wait and see as many things are not within my control.

Anyhow, lemme lay out some resolutions or wishes I've got hanging at the back of my head but didn't have the chance to jot it down! *Thanks,Mr.Work.U've done a great job taking my life away*

1. Settle my credit card bill!
2. Settle my loan with my dad!
3. Have more money $ense.
4. Read more books.
5. Have a larger vocab!
6. Improve my writing style.
7. Take better care of my health and of coz finance!
8. Grow longer hair....or atleast have patience to not cut it short.
9. Have more patience....esp with PEOPLE!*Getting tougher these days :|*
10.Keep in touch with friends as often as possible.
11.Be more domestic whenever possible.
12.Spring clean my room atleast once a month.
13.Talk less. *Is this even possible? :S*
14.Give more to the less fortunate to that i can escape the tax!
15.Pay back my study loan...atleast once in 2 months. =p
16.Lose weight.
17.(There must be more to be added to the list..but i decide not to drain it)

As much as I'd like to put "Lose weight" as my number one resolution....i decide not to coz it has always been number one every year and it doesn't really work so this year..I put it elsewhere on my list. Plus i don't even have time to work towards it. Darn!

Earrings :)

Many pairs for one pair of ears just so suit all my moods and attires and .. COZ i can! =p

Not a hundred pairs yet. To date, there are only about 60 pairs. I believe the number will increase and will eventually reach 100 by end of 2010. =) Anyhow, it is quite an indulgence...a cheap one if you wanna ask. I normally get a few pairs when I'm too broke to get other stuff. Well, I love new stuff so I guess it can't be helped.

Honestly, I can't wear nickel due to allergies but a girl just can't help it. LOL!

Note : For viewing purposes only. Not for sale. =p

Where's your manners?

Where's your manners? Don't you have common sense ATLEAST?
What is it with these ppl who :

1. Won't let ppl get out of the lift before getting in?
2. Won't let ppl get out of the train before getting in?
3. Cut queues?
4. Littersssssss?
5. Can't read "ONE WAY ONLY" road sign?

Hello people, IF you don't let ppl get out of where you wanna be in, there won't be enough space for you. Isn't that basic logic? URGH! Don't tell me you are that dumb!

Cut queues? IF you urgently need to be in front, why don't u go rite behind the first person or better still, go rite in front of the first person. If you think u wanna get your stuff done quickly, what makes you think others don't? Next time, I hope more ppl will cut ur line RITE in front of you so that you'd atleast feel what it is like. :) See if you enjoy it.

I believe we are living in the same state...atleast same country and planet. Why litter? You are already not sweeping the road and trim the plants by the roadside, why litter? To look cool? I'll tell ya something. You look dumb and soooooo not educated. :) Wait. If you happen to fly back to mars after you litter this planet called earth, I might forgive you (though it still shows how shallow ur senses are).

As for ONE WAY road, if you wanna commit offences, do not involve others. What I mean here is, do not get others to be in accidents because of you. 1minute round the block won't cost as much as repairing a dented boot or etc. Double-dumbo. I wonder how you even manage to earn enough with that kind of head on your shoulders. =p

I'm not angry but I'm juz saddened by the mentality of some people around here. And smokers seem to be littering the most! How can they not? If you were to get onto the flyover approaching Universiti station from KL, you'd see lotsa cig butts by the roadside...and not to mention cig boxes and lighters too. Know what that shows? The level of ppl who smokes. =p You already do not care about other around you who you kill every single day, now you also do not care about the env you are living in. Why not throw all your rubbish inside you room. Keep throwing. Keep living in the room. Have fun.

*yes,i'm super sarcastic =p*