One who is rich is one who has no debt

Priority List shall i have the $$$

1. Settle my electone(juz so dat i can have 230bucks every month to myself;suffer now...enjoy later)

2. My idiotic study loan...they can't stop charging admin fees everymonth......urgh...to date...they ate i've paid 1200bucks already and they ate up my 87bucks....so nett total i actually paid is juz 1113bucks...WTH!!!!

3. Give them back their car and get a car of my own...and the only 2 eligible drivers are : My dad n i.....possible car?Suzuki Swift :)

4. Survey house...and get buy one....

These are all just dreamsssss but a dream is a motivation itself...so itz good to dream and plan :)

It is not boring; it is nicccceeeeeeee :)

I would like the Malaysians to love reading..especially the youths....guess itz pretty hard to get it done...but not impossible i believe :D
We just need to get them to read based on their genre...yes..humans has got genre too...lol
As for me...my genres are Chic-Lit,Self-Help and Computer (Technical).

I dunno if i can ever get my brothers to love reading.I dunno if i can ever ditch the idiot box and RPG thingy...I dunno how can i tell people reading is not boring.

I know for sure that i got my bf to read...even if itz juz bzness-related stuff...those are still books and the reading word is there....and i managed to get him to love spending time in the bookstore i believe.

Here at work,i kinda get a colleague of mine to read.He'z into deep non-fiction stuff....guess he'z a very critical guy...i prefer light stuff after work.This morning,another colleague of mine, asked me what kind of books i read...and she said she had juz finished reading a chinese book.Wow!I didn't tell them to read...they juz hear me read :) Fantastic.I dun have to pester people...

Well.Letz hope i can get more people to read after this post :)

Shopaholic on the lease A.L.O.N.E.

A.L.O.N.E.

Who says i won't shop much if i'm alone? Soooo wrong :p

I wasn't supposed to be alone in the first place. My friend couldn't make it to the city...
Thank god i live so very nearby the heart of the city. LOL

Initial mission :
1. Hunt a bday present for a colleague (his 23rd bday is next week)
2. Go to the Bookfest and buy some books.
3. Catch "What Happens In Vegas" at TGV.

I ended doing the following :
1. Bought 2 clothes; 1 formal-ruffley blouse and 1 t-shirt with a gold butterfly printing..is there such word as ruffley anyway?Lol Walked over to the Toys section in iSetan...and found nothing.

2. Queued up at TGV to get the ticket to watch "What Happens In Vegas". Halfway in the line, the screen displated that the cinema is already full :( so i left the line.

3. Went to a gift shop..saw a nice bookmark..didn't buy though.

4. Was super hungry to went to a Japanese Restaurant...first time there...not bad...read a book while waiting...was alone..what do u expect?

5. Went to a shop named Room to see that they have for a guy's room...hardly find anything.

6. Went to Kinokuniya bookstore..bought 2 "The Last Lecture" books (1 for myself and 1 as the present) and Java Swing...i should have been spring...i bought the wrong book...damnit

7. Went back to the gift shop and bought the bookmark so that the guy doens't have to dogear his books or sis book's anymore.

8. Walked all the way down to the Concourse floor...walked through the pedestrian tunnel to the convention center to get to the Bookfest...finally...

9. Pretty lost there....but i made it through...first walked through all the mandarin books...damn i can't read mandarin....then got to the cd n IT sections...bought a 4GB thumbdrive and some blank CDs and a bluetooth USB adapter....were all cheap....and 2 music cds i dun even understand ...one Korean and one Mandarin...lol I thought i was done when i already paid....i ended up at the English books section....bought some books there....haih...when will i ever stop....
By this time....my hands were fully loaded with stuff already and i can't wait to leave the place and go home....but i was super thirsty and i haven't bought the guy's bday card....so i walked as fast as i could back to the mall...bought a card...then got myself an Iced Lemon Tea....then only i head back to my car...

Now, my legs are aching...to be exact...itz my feet. Hihi

idunnohowmanyhundredbucksivespenttoday :'(

I must first stop buying books and clothes!!!!Minus Jeans....hahaha

The next and last book i will buy this coming 2 or 3 months is :
Remember Me by Sophie Kinsella (The hardcover one!!!!) No one is getting this for me...so i'll just it get myself! Maybe i shall get it next weekend when i go to the Golden Triangle again...hihi OMG....I'm already planning for next Saturday???WTH??!!!!!?!?!?!

I killed someone today...My dreams were not juz dreams...They gimme signs

I woke up from a bad dream today...my youngest bro and i was playing with a his friend. We played some sort of a chasing game...i chased the kid and he ended up on an abandoned undermaintainence roller-coaster...when i saw the "Under Maintenance" signage...i was too late to save the boy...he ran on the rail and one of the railing fell...and he fell onto the ground which was few storeys below us.I saw the boy's father and accompanied them to the cemetery to burry the boy. Out of nowhere, my dad appeared telling there's a skeleton in the ground (the spot where the boy was about to be burried)....after some time digging...Yes...we indeed discovered a skeleton. One of the hands was still pretty fresh though. Like as if it was just dead few hours ago. It was very pale. We held the hand and though "Who's hand is this?". My dad said he wants to take it home. I was very scared already. My mom said the hand looked a lil like my dad's. That made him wanna take it home even more. I couldn't say anything. I just want the boy's body to be cremated as soon as possible. As soon as it was cremated, the world was already very dark. I went to the mall where i originally parked my car...then i bumped into a friend...we talked...then i guess i eventually went home...The moment i opened my eyes, it was 6am.
I wonder when was the last time my brain actually stopped working and rest at night. I have dreams every nite. Its juzt whether it is significant to remember or not. Most of the time, they were juz some general kind of things that i don't even wanna recall...so they juz went away....

Another part of my dream last nite was....
I went to someone's house which was also a hair saloon..i went there to trim my hair. In my dream, i went there because they were all female and i feel comfortable with them (i dunno them in real-life though). The first woman started trimming my hair...then she left and told me to wait as she wants to watch the idiot box or answer a call. I waited for a very long time.Veeerrrryyyyy long...it felt like hours. I made a face..then a girl saw me and said sorry; the other lady forgot she cut my hair..WTH?!Anyhow, the girl continued to trim my hair and it turned out juz so-so.
Nothing significant here but i just remember the dream.LOL...Well 3 things to highlight here though; 1. I hate the idiotic box. 2. I hate it when ppl put me on hold just so that they can answer their calls and later forget they were talking to me. 3. I hate waiting!!!!!

Here comes the part that relates to the title above (yeah....i love to tell things from the very extreme beginning..i wonder how my significant other can stand me...lol).

I left home around 945am this morning to withdraw my money from the ATM. Then i headed to the Golden Triangle. On my way there, i was thinking about my dream...and how will my day be today. Out of nowhere, a brown orangey cat ran to cross the road...right in front of my car...it was too late for me to stop my car...so i ran into it...or rather him....or her...it hit the front of my car very hard...when i looked into my side mirror, i saw the cat on the road and something(looks like a piece of board..didn't know what it was) flew.....the cat was sooo in pain....i screamed when i ran into it....i swear i could feel the bones i ran onto... :'( I can't believe i did that...and of all creature...i killed the kind of creature i love the most :'( i was shaky for awhile...called a friend just to talk it out...when i reached my destination and parked my car, i check if anything went wrong with my car or if there's anything stuck in front of my car...that's when i discovered my car plate number was missing....So that was the thing which flew when i hit the cat. Any witness? Well,there was a mid-age man on the side of the road in front of the Indonesian Embassy when i ran into the cat. He looked at me...and he looked fierce. I believe he heard the cat screaming :'( OMG.........................Plz forgive me..............Mr./Miss Cat....... Plz forgive me.....I didn't didn't see u..... :'( I REALLY didn't.........Hope u dun have ur family members waiting for u to return....Gosh............ :'(

After i'm done with my stuff in the Golden Triangle, i headed back to my housing neighbourhood and look for a car workshop to get the car plate replaced. Thought of just replacing the one which broke but it would make the one at the back of my car looks very old and yellow...so i changed both...and it cost me 30 bucks. Being a shopaholic, i didn't just pay for the plate numbers...i bought a pair of window shades for my car...thought i could put in on the driver's side....it ended up being in the shape of the windows for the windows at the back for passengers...WTH...i put it on anyway...so that when i drive ppl arond (whenever is that), they will be shaded.Haih....Well, it was 10 bucks.

Loneliness Kills

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L.o.n.e.l.i.n.e.s.s. kills...
How can i erase the word from my database?
Somebody plz help me......Guess this is quite the phase where my smiles and laughter could not hide how i feel inside :

So in need for someone by my side.....i'm such a kitten....... :

This is also a phase where my work can't help to distract me from feeling the loneliness :

So in need for someone to be close to me....so in need for security and comfort...and love...and.....yeah...i could go on and on...and still feeling the same and hold back my tears....so i guess i should juz jet off now...hope i will be feeling better in my next post to myself. :

Things better not spoken

There are things which are better kept to our hearts sometimes...esp in a relationship.
I've learnt to be patient. I've learnt to compromise. I've learnt to put my anger aside.
And the list goes on.....yet there are still more things to improve.
No doubt things can make u doubt whether or not your relationship would work...therefore,faith and determination are the keywords....i guess atleast 2 of the keywords.

Let me get straight to the point and let it out. Since it is juz 9:12am in the morning when i start cracking lines here.

I hate the fact that his biological clock is sooooo messed up.
He is almost nocturnal.Urgh...never knew this could be used on homo sapiens..but i juz used it...worse...i used it on someone i wanna have my future with.How ironic.Anyhow....i'm already working now. My work is pretty demanding at times. It is very nice that ppl around me understand that esp my family. In a relationship....communication is crucial. My biological clock is fine. I sleep at nite...i wake up and go to work in the morning. I don't doubt that there are times my work is eating up my life but i try my very best to pull it back to me. I.e. i make sure i read atleast one chapter in my storybook everyday....and sing to the songs i love and of coz listen to the radio....and yeah...facebook'ing.See!I have life!

Now, back to HIM.
1. He doesn't do his work til itz like 2 hours b4 submission...sometimes the nite b4 the deadline.
2. He hardly wakes up b4 noon...by the time he gets up..im pretty done with 12 hours of my day.
3. He doesn't eat properly and eats fastfood rather than cook crap on his own.
4. He's glued to the idiot box...urgh.
5. Hardly focused on his studies....his uni sux too...they juz suck $$$....this is definitely a priority issue
6. If i manage to leave the office early...he wants to go out with his friends and come back like 9...or 10 pm....

Last nite, he went out right after i finished packing up my stuff to go home. When i reached home, i called to ask when will he be back..he said around 9...When he got home, he told me a friend of his is coming over to buy air tickets coz this idiotic guy doens't have credit card..he said it won't take long...however,he only called when it was almost 11pm...hello?i've been up since morning and i've been working not sitting down and do nothing at work...haih.........in the end,when he called me, i was already asleep...therefore,no communication.Full stop.

Mister...please get ur stuff done..which is to get a degree and come back to kl. Forget bout earning soooo much money from stock exchange and forex and some fancy bzness ideas of urs as gettin a degree is ur number one.Quit paying for astro and stop watching the idiot box...it would make u an idiot after sometime.It first makes u a slave...then make u an idiot. Forget bout the moronic LAN games...once in awhile it is fine..but if it steals ur study time and mood away from u.Ditch it. Stop copying other ppls' hw and tests. U have better brains. Use it! Last but not least, stop dreaming about a new car. If u wanna get married and serious about it,save the $$$.OK?We can worry about ur car later.It is me who needs a new one.Need...not want....OK?

See!These kind of things are better kept inside....if i were to talk this way,it will definitely ruin my relationship. All i do is keep one eye closed and take a very deep breath. Who says i dunno how to live my life?I do :) I really do...though compromising is pretty tough....i still do :)

Personality Report courtesy of www.bored.com

Personality Type Report

Your Personality Preferences

EXTROVERT/INTROVERT
You appear to be an equal mix of both extrovert and introvert. This may cause you some conflict at times. On the other hand, the balance of the two may work just fine for you. There is certainly nothing wrong with having a fair share of both types if you are happy. Below you will find descriptions of both types.

EXTROVERT
You are social and outgoing. You are most comfortable when with other people and experiencing the world first hand. Interaction with others and first hand experiences energize you. It is not unlike you to start conversations with strangers. You have a preference for the outer world: people, activities, and things. Other people provide you with a mirror, sounding board to help you develop ideas and plans. Being alone may sap your energies. Your concept of the world is derived from experiencing it firsthand and then drawing conclusions.

INTROVERT
While you may not be anti-social, you do need (and deserve) your private time and space to retreat from the world. Unlike extroverts, you need to develop a concept of the world or some aspect of it before experiencing it. Too much socializing may sap your energies. Your energies are derived from exploring the inner world of ideas, impressions and pure thought.

SENSORY / INTUITIVE
You appear to be an equal mix of both sensory and intuitive types. This may cause you some conflict at times. On the other hand the balance of the two may work just fine for you. There is certainly nothing wrong with having a fair share of both types if you are happy. Below you will find descriptions of both types. SENSORY You usually gather information with your senses: what you can see, hear, taste, touch and smell in the physical world. The facts gathered from the sensory data you process are the building blocks of your model of our world. You concentrate your energies on what actually exists and do not ponder what might exist too much. You are usually practical and rely on your common sense to guide you through the world. You see things as they are and have little or no need to search for underlying meanings.

INTUITIVE
While you do process information through your senses you add a twist to your processing by relying on intuition and serendipity. You look for undercurrents of meaning and abstractions in what you experience physically. You do not just see things just as they are, but as what they could be. While you may rely on common sense at times, you trust inspiration far more.

JUDGING/ PERCEIVING
You appear to be an equal mix of both judging and perceiving types. This may cause you some conflict at times. On the other hand the balance of the two may work just fine for you. There is certainly nothing wrong with having a fair share of both types if you are happy. Below you will find descriptions of both types. JUDGING You like decisions to be made as soon as possible. You are not comfortable with loose ends and like to see conflicts resolved as soon as possible. You have a preference for a well-structured, orderly lifestyle with few surprises. It may not be all that important who makes the decisions that gets things done as long things do get done. You take commitments very seriously.PERCEIVINGYou like to have as much information as possible before making a decision. Putting off a final decision until the last moment does not make you uncomfortable. Indeed once a decision is made, a course plotted, you may feel a bit uneasy, because you feel bound to a certain course of action. You would much prefer to wait and see what happens. You enjoy the opportunity to improvise. Commitments are not etched in stone to you, and are changeable.

THINKING/ FEELING
You appear to be an equal mix of both thinking and feeling types. This may cause you some conflict at times. On the other hand the balance of the two may work just fine for you. There is certainly nothing wrong with having a fair share of both types if you are happy. Below you will find descriptions of both types.

FEELING
You make decisions subjectively based upon your values and what is important to you. How people will be affected by your decisions is important to you. You are likely to make decisions based upon what you feel is acceptable and agreeable rather than what is logical. Your truths are founded in your values and those of the society you live in. It is important to remember that we are discussing how you evaluate data and make decisions, and that you rely on your feelings to do so in no way implies you are overly emotional.

THINKING
You evaluate data and reach conclusions by using your ability to apply logical, objective analysis to the information before you. Your thinking process values consistency and fairness over the affect your decisions will have on others. You compare courses of action logically and make your choices based upon what consequences you see them as having. If there is something wrong with a plan, you are the one to ferret it out. It is important to remember that this does not mean you are cold and unfeeling, but that your thinking process is analytical.

Your Personality Type
Because your personality preferences were so evenly matched, it is not possible for this assessment to derive a specific personality type for you. This in no way implies there is anything wrong with you! It simply means that your preferences are far too balanced for a short assessment like this to assign a specific personality type for you.

Your personality preferences suggest you may be one of two personality types, so both these types are listed below.

Extrovert/Sensing/Thinking/Judging
You are outgoing, energetic and reliable. You like taking the role of the leader. Considering your well-developed organizational skills and abilities to implement successful policies and procedures, the leader role is perfect for you. You can focus your energies on solving problems without getting drained. You are assertive, outspoken, do not shy from hard work, goal oriented, consistent, practical and logical.In relationships, you like to take on the role as advisor/director and will happily assume important responsibilities. You will keep your commitments at almost any costs. You are fun to be around--if all the work is done. You seek active pursuits with your family and friends. You are very comfortable with the role of provider. You may have difficulty understanding your emotions or those of others. You may feel your way is the best way, and force it on those around you. You can be impatient with others and have a closed ear to their ideas and needs. .

Famous People of Your Type:
James Monroe, Andrew Jackson, William Henry Harrison, Franklin Pierce, Grover Cleveland, Harry S. Truman, Lyndon B. Johnson, Carrie Nation, Elliot Ness, John D. Rockefeller, Bette Davis, Barbara Stanwyck, Rev. Billy Graham. .Occupations Suited to Your Type Include:Administrator, Attorney, Information Manager, electrician, Dentist, Doctor, Teacher, Bank Officer, Contractor, Manager, Law Officer, Military Officer, Stockbroker, and Supervisor.

Extrovert/Intuitive/Thinking/Judging
You make a very confident leader and enjoy being in charge. You are ambitious and do not hesitate to make decisions. You are a master at solving complex problems, and relish intellectual interaction. Your talent for innovation is bolstered by your ability to think analytically and logically. You value your independence and are a self-starter. Regardless of the task, your goal remains the same: to be the best there can be. Where others see obstacles, you see challenges.In relationships you are sincere and plain-spoken. You need a life of gusto and an upbeat tempo. While very serious about your work, you do have a fun loving side that comes out often. You nurture those you care for by encouraging them towards goals you feel will improve their life and status. You see relationships as opportunities to learn. You may be a bit overbearing at times. Social status is important to you. You often hide the soft side of you by displaying a tough exterior to the world.

Famous People of Your Type:
Franklin D. Roosevelt, Richard M. Nixon, Benny Goodman, General Norman Schwarzkopf, Harrison Ford, Steve Martin, Whoopi Goldberg, Sigourney Weaver, Margaret Thatcher, Al Gore, Candace Bergen, Dave Letterman, Jim Carrey .

Occupations Suited to Your Type Include:
Administrator, banker, curriculum designer, economist, engineer, planner, information technology manager, attorney, manager, doctor, psychologist, researcher, scientist, stockbroker, and systems analyst.

Note : This is the closest ever i guess...hihi

Extremely Hectic

Itz been awhile since i last posted a new post.
Well,lots had happened...lots of $$ had been spent...and of coz lotsa time has been spent in the office...working.They still dare to say they want their employees to have work and life balance *Sighhh*

Now, i'm trying my very best to have the balance. There's simply more to life than just work.Right?Anyhow, since i started working in this company, i made a vow that i will not bring home my work..as in continue doing my work after i get home from work.Craziness.
I have spent like half of my day in the office working already...if i were to bring home my work and get it done at home....i only have like what...3 or 4 hours to myself???No way!So not happening.

I started picking up books to read and try my very best to read atleast a page per day. My vocab is soooo getting limited and i dun think i wanna say anything about my sentence construction. I'm thankful that i can still form decent sentences to write my thoughts here.Hahaha

U might wanna know what happened to the new electone. Well, i love it. The first song i played on it was "I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing" by Aerosmith..almost cried....juz cause it took me soooo long to have a proper electone and this time i spent my own money on it. Minus this month, i still have 21 more months to settle the installments. It is worthied. I now have something else i can do besides juz work stuff. Been seeing my friends since the 1st week of April so im hardly at home over the weekends.HArdly have time to get anything in my room organized.*Ashamed*
The last time i played a song on the electone was maybe 2 or 3 weeks ago.

My work...is still the test data thingy. This time it is worse coz i have to create test data to be sent to 3rd parties like DiGi, Celcom and UMobile for them to their Maxis data at their side. Not-so ez-pz. Had to do some clean ups a number of times. In the end, i ended up creating the test data manually...as in 1-by-1.Tediosity is a newly added word in my vocab. Thanks to the test data.Anyhow, i hope to get to roll-off this project in the end of this month. When they first assigned me to this project, my roll-off date was 1st of June. After some time, they extended it to 1st Oct.*Sighhh* Now, it is back to 1st June. However, though they said the date is already confirmed, my date still says 1st Oct. Hope they would update soon. :

Virtual vs Physical

How do i go about with this?

Shall i start writing in my diary and stick writing in it coz itz so accessible anytime or shall i keep posting things here according to my mood needs?Is there such thing?Hihi

Well, i guess i'll juz use both....depends on my mood. Kao tim. :)