The Last Polka@Whisk, Empire Subang

When you are bored with the commercialized ice-cream, give the homemade ones a shot. The last time I dropped by Whisk was about a year or two ago for their cakes. This time, my brother in-law introduced me to The Last Polka. Being the noob me, I have not heard of this but the packaging looks nice. Guess this could be Fat Baby's rival. ;)

There are quite a number of flavours. I settled with Salted Gula Melaka because I love gula Melaka and it reminds me of salted caramel.

Deep dark chocolate is my hudband's and Horlicks is apparently what my bro in-law always go for.

Of all 3 we ordered, mine is the BEST! Deep dark choc is bitter for my liking and I have a feeling my bro in-law might switch to Salted Gula Melaka after this. :p




Pink Stacks; new flavour they have in the list but was not lucky enough to try it as it was already sold out. Better luck next time j guess.

The damage?




Us fooling around cozy he interior decor is nice.




For those who has never been to Whisk, enjoy the 2 pics below. Address is at the bottom of this post.






Wanna know more about The Last Polka? Go to www.thelastpolka.com

Other flavours to drool after:
Mango
French Toast
Strawberry Cream Cheese
Nutella
Teh Tarik
Green Tea
Malt and Peanut Butter

Whisk@Empire Subang
LG 3A, Empire Shopping Gallery
Jalan SS16/1,
Subang Jaya
47500 Selangor.
Tel: 03-5022 2060

Whisk, Outpost
G139, 1 Utama Shopping Center,
1, Lebuh Bandar Utama,
Petaling Jaya.
47800 Selangor.
Tel: 03-7722 1020

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Essential Appliances

Essential is another subjective word. It all depends on the individuals. What triggered this subject?

Well, ever since I'm living in the attic I always fine tune the way I live. Up til now I still eat out a lot with my husband. Trying to cut this down. I gotta admit time most of the time doesn't permit.

We have gone from no pantry to having a fridge. Then to microwave to sandwich maker...electric kettle..mini grill and latest addition, the toaster. :)

Another one on the way is a multi-cooker I bumped into on some deals website. That will allow me to boil my edamame, steam my BBQ paus, fry some simply fried rice and my favourite omelette maybe ;)

What I wish to have is still my own house. What would be good to have right now is a washing machine and drying area :p sounds almost like a house in the attic! Anyhow, still not enough space!!! Lol! Space is always an issue for me I guess. Never had a room big enough. It is always just the rift size for a bedroom set and a spot to pray and that's it! I have more in the attic we there are 2 of us and we practically make a house in the room so yea....not enough :p

What I consider as essential items(apart from lights and fans and water pump):

Fridge
Washing machine
Microwave oven
Vacuum cleaner
Radio

That's pretty much it. No, I don't have tv on my list. I don't need it. :p To be normal like everyone else, fine I'll have it on my list. At the very bottom that is. Pfffftt

P/s: Juz feel the need to blab!

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It Ends Tonight

The clock juz said "Itz zero hours". We are officially out of 10th June. Officially a month from 10th May. Juz the reason why I am feeling this way. I know I am not wrong when I said my birthday lasts one month this year. For that, I am thankful.

Thankful that I felt like my birthday.

Thankful for the experience I had in the clear water with all the beautiful fishes.
Thankful for being able to have my feet on the smooth powdery white sands that I normally juz get to see in pictures.
Thankful for the time spent with the kids at work on my birthday.
Thankful for the bouquet of flowers I get this year. (The first bouquet since Dec 2010!)
Thankful for the oh-so-many birthday meals. Well it may not all classify as birthday meals but heck! It was near my birthday and it is pricey! People don't really eat pricey meals everyday.

Anyhow, unlike any fairy tales happiness period ends tonight. Bittersweet feeling.
I gotta say I will more likely write a post when I'm feeling very low rather than on top of the world. The feeling has to go somewhere and here I am calming myself down.

FYI,
I came home early for you. That's my effort.
I asked to come to bed early. That's my effort coz I know I change gears very slowly.

I sometimes despise the word effort coz it is non-measurable. Even at work, I really have no idea how they count it! do we have 8hours per head at work or 24hours at work and 36hours a day? :p

Too late to be calling anybody to talk about nothing now......so back to me,myself and I.

Is this surprising?
It isn't but odd that I am still not prepared when I have foreseen this!
(I believe I have a very forgiving soul that I can be sold, man!)

Similarities in the bloodline

If you have ever said you have no similarities with your siblings(especially the one who really don't get along well with), I suggest you spend more time with the person doing random things. :p

In my case, I do not hate my brother but I happen to find more similarities. This found at a Japanese restaurant.

Here is how it started....
I arrived at the restaurant. He was still looking for a parking spot. Ordered 2 iced water as we both do not drink green tea. *funny...I know...*.

Ordered eel and salmon. Fine. Nothing out of ordinary here. When it came to a new dish we wanna try out, we took the plate.
Picked up the food, bend lower to the table an smell the food. Hahahahahaha when I noticed this, we both burst out in laughter.

When it came to the eel roll, we poked the cucumber out of the sushi. Aren't we just awesome? LMAO!


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Someday....hopefully soon

Every since Jan 2011, when she comes it will be either physically or emotionally painful.

This month. Both. May I not have to go through many more cycles of this. Don't know how much longer I can stand this before I crumble. *increasing the frequency of doa*

I know I'll be more loved when the day comes. Not just from him but maybe by almost everyone in the family. Plz let it come soon.

I know it won't be easy but that is what I want. We want. We all want. May I be able to appreciate it more than others. Particularly those who do not go through this and get things easily in life. World can be unfair just like that but who are we to question?

I'm always very thankful I can cry out this pain. Alhamdulillah.



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Rainbow Studs

Bought this at Primark,UK. £2 only. Why can't we have something nice with great quality and awesomely priced in Malaysia???? The last time I bought cheap studs in Malaysia(RM10/pair), it either cause allergy or dropped from its back........ *smirk*

The missing pair is on my ears. Yellow pair of hearts. :)
Couldn't get enough of it, so I bought more last nite.

RM19 each. It stated Nickel, Lead , Cadmium Free. It better be. My skin would know if it isn't!
Sooooooooo can we have Primark in Malaysia? :)
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Pweety Apams

Almost toy-like don't you think?



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Just Another Post....

If there is one thing I would like to do now, it would be to disappear until the end of my birthday. Why? I don't want to go through another hellish birthday. Once is more than enough. I don't look for an extravagant birthday celebration coz if that is what I want, I would plan it on my own and pay it all coz no one can do that for me. No expectations for anybody to do this. Could this be a reason to label me selfish? Be it. I don't recall the time I cared about what people say about me anyway. This is the girl who wasn't liked since the day she came to this world. Bring it on!

If there is one thing i'd wish for...it would be for me and my family to be where we were probably 20years ago. The time when my parents were both younger and healthier. I believe we were happier too coz we weren't here. Now, life has gotten so much more complicated. I have been giving in for sooo many things. Things that I would never even give way to (even in my head) if you were to put me in the same place 5 years back. Why the change? Maybe for love. cliche....i know..

The best thing about this year would be the fact that I have bought all my presents. They've all been waiting in the wardrobe since early this year...all waiting for May! Am I delighted? Of coz I am! Coz there is no dependency on anybody but ME! Why depend on others when they may fail,right? :p

Last night was the night I gave up on a beach holiday. I don't want it anymore. I don't see the point doing it with someone who doesn't feel like it. (Your sentence crushed my enthusiasm.) Just like how much KLCC means to me. It is my special spot. It is my familiar ground. It makes me feel . As for my birthday leaves, I'll probably just spend it t home with my parents and siblings...read something...stitch something...take my mom out and stuff. Well, that is IF I don't cancel it.

Being where I am is definitely very confusing. I sometimes just give in to things to make others happy. Most of the time, I'm not near happy but it is a lot better than dealing with unhappy ppl around me. They are more troublesome to handle. Guess me being unhappy is easier to handle. When did I discover this? The day I signed my life away.

Things I have given up in the past few days:

1. My birthday

2. Birthday present from someone close...to my best friends, I still wanna have some wishes from you guys...it is always so nice to know someone cares. REALLY.

3. The beach holiday I looked forward to (i REALLY don't want this anymore) The pre-holiday to-do list is also removed....so no waxing...no need to look for my goggles....no need to think of which suitable sunglasses to bring...which nice book/mag to bring along...no need to remember to bring the sunblock and camera charger....no need anything. All scraped out. I'll use the 1k to clear some more space in my magic card. 

4. TTC this month...everything is just soooo OFF. I don't have the bucks to go for crappy treatments anymore. Modern, traditional..u name it. I'm tired. And it is always me who has to go through it. The procedures. The meds. The everything. It is boring. And incase you haven't noticed, it creates unnecessary pressure. My work is killing me enough. (Lately it isn't work...but someone at work..) Maybe I wouldn't need to go for any treatments if I'm completely happy. Who would leave a girl crying? Who wouldn't convince a girl to have breakfast when she barely had anything for dinner last nite juz coz she doesn't feel like eating where you want to eat? Go ahead call her selfish.

5. My own house. To start with, I don't even know why I settled with the idea to get a house in this area. Wait! I know! So that you are happy. So that it is me who goes through the pain everyday to work. Even if I don't go to work, my parents are near the city so I do the traveling if i wanna see them. So...why did I settle with the idea? One : I would like to stay on my own. That's the number one objective. I remember! Two : I don't want to go through another argument. Three : It doesn't benefit you if we were to stay elsewhere. Call me selfish again, plzzzzz. 

I always believe God tests ppl who are stronger. The ones who are stronger, needs to endure more. I believe my parents agree. My best friends too. Some questioned why I gave in. It is just something I have to do. Someone has to do it, right? And that someone is ME. =) Stubborn? I'm doubting myself already.

What do I feel like doing now?

1. Be somewhere no one knows me. Higher chance ppl will ask me how I'm doing there.

2. Not eat. I just don't feel like having anything now. Btw,y am I so freaking fat?Thanks to the stalls "=.=

3. Get a haircut.

4. Get my nails buffed.

5. See nobody.

6. Pack up my stuff and give everyone including myself a break! The only thing holding me back from doing this is just SIN.

Possible?

You may get think I'm such a coward for typing this instead of talking this out. Look at me. Do I look like someone who will shut her mouth? :p When I decide to shut my mouth, it is the time I give up on talking about some matters. Plus, when I type, no one interrupts. For example, when I speak...anybody could interrupt and jump into my line. When I type, how can anyone jump into my sentences? Would they take my keyboard away just to "reply" my previous sentence? I don't think so. So here it is.....I hope this helps stop my tears. The tears that I had to wipe on my own. =) Thank you.

p/s: I really don't recall crying so much in a year.......funny

The Birthday To Remember

The birthday to remember.

Nothing awesome about the figure 26. Just a number some would say. Yeah, I agree. It it 4 years from being 30 from my point of view. :p If you're the half-full kind of person. Good for you.

Honestly, I've had so many birthdays in my life but this year is it different coz I have a husband. That's the only change.
I need to have this entry to let things out rather than go ranting everywhere in the cyberspace.

Everyone who knows me well enough would know how much fun I find in singing and reading. Don't think I wanna mention shopping coz it goes w/o saying. :p This year, the project decided to hold a project dinner at RedBox. How awesome is that? As much as I wished I could join and rock out, I declined.

Why? Coz my husband booked me right away. He said "Your evening is mine." Trust me. I was so happy. I've told him that I didn't want anything for my bday this year. Not a piece of cake. Not a piece of card. But when he said that, I believe that he would have his own plan. Atleast a dinner. It did not happen. The whole day was his but he had stuff so I told him to get his stuff done. I don't mind. One thing led to another thing. Time set was 2pm so when my bestfriend asked me out for lunch, I said "Let'z go!". That was wise. Coz it was the only meal I had. 2 awesome pastas shared. 2 delicious desserts shared. ^___^
Back to the dissappointment story. Everyone knows my work eats me up. So when I go onleave, I'm REALLY onleave. ALL OUT! When a day of leave gets wasted, I will be extremely sad. I dunno which bit went wrong. Called him at about 3:43pm. He said the entire day is ruinned. I didn't get it. It wasn't even 8pm. I don't even know what was ruinned. He hung up. I still didn't get my answer. Replied his parents' bday wish to say TQ. Then turned off my phone. Tadaa!

Minutes turned to hours. No signs of anything. Everyone must have believed that I'm having a blast with my husband. Sorry guys, I didn't so if I happen to look extremely blue the next day, please don't ask me why. Was hoping to check out the sofa I found for the house but I guess he is not that interested.

Did laundry. Hung the clothes and checked out of window if there's any sense of happiness or apology coming. None. Decided to clear up the shoe rack while I was taking out the vacuum cleaner. Took out the vacuum cleaner. Then vacuumed the entire house. Atleast I didn't waste my entire time moping around for nothing. Rocked out the sound system while I cleaned. Bathed. Lathered the shweeettt Vic Secret shower gel I bought last year before I got married. hahaha Awesome shower.

Read my book. Go to my laptop to type out this entry coz I need to lighten up my heart. He came back. I told him to gimme 5mins for me to juz put a place holder; I just want the entry to be on my birthday. He said he couldn't wait. Ironic. What is 5mins when that someone has waited yonks rite? :( I wish I can keep on saying it is unfair but I don't feel like it. He left the room. Thought he is juz getting something to drink. He turned on the TV. That marked the end of me. Fell asleep. He bathed..i think. He left the room. I woke up. No pillows. Went out...he was in the living room at his laptop. 2nd time over for me. Clickety click on the mouse. It didn't end. I couldn't fall back to dreamland again. Read some more. Still couldn't fall asleep..sucks. Shut the door. Forced myself to sleep. Eventually fell asleep....ahhhhhhh it was almost 3am I think.

Thank god I have Mr.Work to turn to. I know he needs me whenever. Mr.Book, he is always very loyal and obviously accommodating. I believe he loves me as much as I love him. He wouldn't mind me putting him aside for me to have other form of fun too. Super understanding. Don't you think? ;)

Letz do a lil recap on the birthdays I remember. Btw, I can't remember my 21st birthday.

Sweetest bday gift in life
18th. I thought my family forgot my birthday coz no one said anything about it since breakfast. So..who cares rite? Not that I wanted anything anyway. The clock struck 8:35pm when I was wiping the dining table after dinner when my dad suddenly said "Eh, what is the time now?" My mom said "This is the time when she's coming out." They then wished me happy birthday.

Best birthday bash in life
23rd. My parents threw it for me and my bro. They knew that would be the only time they get to do that and they want us to atleast experience it. It was awesome. BBQ at lvl 4. Unbelievable. 50 over ppl crammed in our apartment. Even more unbelievable. Everyone sang the bday song. It was sooooo awesome! ^__^ Was really the best birthday bash ever! Who said parents are not kewl about stuff? ;)

Ice-Cream Cake Bday
25th Bday. I dunno if there are any kids out there who never wished for an ice-cream cake. I've always wanted it but it is too pricey and my family didn't have that much to be spending on a cake. To cut long story short, it wasn't quite feasible. My colleagues decided to get an ice-cream cake from Baskin out of nowhere. There! My first ice-cream bday cake. :) I got it. Happy. Don't need anymore. The experience is nice. Some wishes take some time to come true but it does come true! Work is also not juz work. ;) Colleagues are friends too :) Apart from that, my bday was celebrated everyday of the week! I got slices of cakes the subsequent 2 days. One from the William the DBA; mille crepe! The other one from Ryan the phil bookaholic. Another bday meal from Joyce; OLIO! Everyday was a bday. Celebrated with my parents over the weekends. My bestfriend took me out for a steamboat buffet.

The Chinese-Style Bday Lunch

22nd Bday. Crown Princess Hotel. Celebrated with my godmother who happened to be my training supervisor too. Other guys who are friends with me at work were invited too. That includes the other 2 trainee guys I worked with. Nice lunch. :)

The Final High School Bday
17th. And at a fast food outlet. ;) Got a huge teddy from my besties. Cake was Tiramisu. My husband(then,my boyfriend) turned up. Took our first pic together. He gave me a lil kitten which very much resembled my late daughter when she was a kitten. I wore my fav top with my fav skirt. My classmate's cousin helped to deliver ALL my presents to my hse. How niceeee :) My parents sponsored the celebration. I bought the cake from a bakery nearby my hse and carried it on my own to the fastfood outlet. 
 
Here are the stuff I did on my bday.
- Made the bed
- Had lunch with my bestest friend; the only meal I had on my bday.
- Settled a stupid personal loan at the bank.
- Refueled by car; didn't wash it coz it looked like it was gonna rain but it didn't in the end. >.< Mr.Rain is also a male.
- Did laundry.
- Vacuumed the entire house.
- Refilled the bottles in the fridge.
- Arranged my books I brought back from my MIL's place.
- Trash the unwanted shampoos from the rack in the bathroom my husband is using.
- Cleared out the shoe rack so that my husband has some space to put his shoes; at a brokenhearted point, I still wants things to be nice for him.
- Read some chapters in the book I'm currently reading.
- Reminisced moments spent with my family and wished they were still with me when my heart has been shattered. Cried. Bathed as the attempt to wash away my sorrow.
- Contemplated on whether I should head out for my own bday dinner or stay in. Couldn't decide so no dinner.
 
p/s: This post is meant to have the date of my bday this year but I failed coz I put the place holder in the bookblog instead. Dayummm!

1Liter Per Day?

Many may wonder how hard can it be to drink 1L of water everyday. I'm gonna tell you it ain't easy for me. :( Unhealthy? I know....Most of the time, I forgot to drink....so the water I brought from home will be left at work overnight to be drank the next day... *sweat* And yes, I bring my water from home....some water tend to taste funny....I trust the one from my home. =p

p/s: Been gewd this days; drink atleast half of the water in this bottle! In the meantime, Mr.Work, please don't distract me too much...I still need to remember to drink!

Why One Should Be In Bed By 10pm!

After yearsssss of working, only last night I got the chance to sleep at 10pm! Such an awesome feeling I get when I woke up this morning at 6:45am. It was showering outside and I read a chapter of Happiness in Hard Times by Andrew Matthews. Though it was still quite dark outside, I feel FRESH! The sound of my dad teasing my mom while having his breakfast is wonderful too. Things are well when you get enough rest.

I walked on the threadmill for a bit. Then vacummed the house. Chatted with my mom a lil. Then hit the bed to chat with my prince charming a little. By the time I hit the shower, it was already 10:15am. On other days, that will be the time I finally get to open my eyes. Not only that, I will be waking up to sore body and (sadly..still) fatigue.

After last night, I hope there will be another night when I can get a great good nite rest!

Oh so colourful!

I sometimes view the analytics of my blog..ya know..just for the fun of it. Well, why blog if it isn't fun? :p
If i could paint the week, I'll have to pick solemn colours as the week started with sickness. Was in bed on Monday and Tuesday. When I got back to work Wednesday onwards, the week simple suck....don't bother asking me why coz I don't wanna revisit the week. Hope the solemness won't linger til next week.

In the virtual world..or rather my blog, it seems to be preffy colourful. I've seen fractions of visitors' origins but maybe this the the first time I've seen this many fractions and of coz COLOURS! *Can't help wondering if they will run out of colours if there are more countries popping out*

Why Is My Blackberry slow?

I've gotten my Blackberry Bold early this year from my parents. Recently, after much thought I reactivated the Blackberry Plan and FINALLY upgraded from Prepaid to Postpaid service. (After 9years that is...they should pay me for loyalty. =p)

Since Monday, my phone has been oddly slow. Never happened before and it is getting very annoying so thank you to Mr.Google, he saved my temper.

The following link is very helpful!
http://www.blackberryforums.com/mac-users-corner/177304-bold-slow-navigate-system.html

Apparently, we need to clear cache. LOL!
The normal solution is always restart the phone and of course (the most popular solution) re-insert the battery. Doing those will help most of the the time but it is not so great when do not really know what is going on in the system (as in the root cause of the problem). Bear with me a lil while if you find this very techy.

All I did was to hold the Alt key and press LGLG. The phone event log will then be displayed. I wished I could attach what is looks like but I'm not quite sure if BB allows printscreen. Will find out later. Tap on the BB key and choose the option to clear the log and VIOLA! System back to normal....ok...phone back to normal. =p

Many may be super expert in BB navigation and administration but I'm quite a newbie. Still exploring and testing its' capabilities. So far. It is kewl! ;) Gotta thank my parents again!

Btw, to reboot : Alt+Cap+Del ;) Will post more when I find out more on BB tips and tricks!

Kiehl's World Environment Day

Kiehl's celebrated World Environment Day 2010 by giving away recycle bags exclusively designed by the Editors of Glam, Female, NuYou and Eh! For every 2 products purchased, one bag is given. All the bags look pretty esp the one by Glam and Female.

Based on my previous post Kiehler I bought 2 products but not given the bag. My bad. I didn't find out how to get the bag when I bought the products. Guess the salesperson forgot too. I only found out when I checked out their fanpage on Facebook.

One of the admins saw my comment and I was lucky enough to still get one bag reserved! How nice :))

Now that I've gotten my bag, I can show it off! =p For more pictures on Kiehl's World Environment Day, click here.

( Pretty eh? )

Kiehl's Official URL :
http://www.kiehls.com/

Kiehl's Malaysia Fanpage on Facebook :
http://www.facebook.com/myKIEHLS

Low Mentality

What has the world come into? By the time I'm 30, will all the girls be in lingerie when they leave their house?
I have outgrown my favourite pair of blue jeans. A pair of blue jeans is something essential in everyone's wardrobe (Yes, this includes the males!)

I dropped by KLCC to accompany one of my bestfriends to shop. I wasn't really hunting for a paor of jeans but when Padini is just around the corner, I decided to drop by. Went through a pile of blue jeans and found all of 'em are low-rise. It couldn't be all low-rise, right? I asked the salesperson "Do you have any jeans which is not low-rise?". He replied "No". I was in disbelief so I asked again to confirm. Same answer.

That's so freaking odd. How can you not have anything else? This is the reason why we see butt cracks everywhere. How disgusting. C'mon! Isn't it enoughh that you sell short and tight tees these days? Or even sheer or lowcut? So frustrating. I don't like showing my butt to the world and I still have respect for myself if not for others. On top of that, I really do not feel comfortable about my male family members and loved ones  to be seeing all that ugly sight. Go ahead. Call me old-fashioned or conservative! Atleast I respect myself. =p Whatever happens to modesty, eh?

p/s: Not low enough? Get a super low-rise pair of pants.

A voice of a REAL woman.
http://rosedesrochers.todays-woman.net/2010/05/18/butt-crack-attack/
A girl who probably is sick of low-rise.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/malingering/74011707/

Low and Slow

Urghhh! The connection is ridiculously slow today. Is it as sick as I am? :(
I've been trying to load some pages and it either make me wait for ages or it times out.
FYI, I'm now in a telco provider office. Ironic....

Nose feels stuffy. Head feels heavy. Heart wants to be in bed and read all the books in the to-be-read pile.
Feeling pretty low...guess the mood is off this week. Mr.Work is not helping. Bought some books. They cheered me up. I need them!!!!

Weekend is coming sooooonnn!!!
I have these in mind.
- Caramel pudding
- Moist choc cake (if I'm not out with the girls for a slumber party)
- Parmesan oregano bread (fell in love with the one from Subway. Can't keep going to only get the bread rite?)
- Redeem the Rene Furterer voucher I won
- Make some space for new books..space is scarce now :(
- Get my laundry done
- Update my book blog with more book reviews particularly for my very own Roald Dahl Bookathon
- Go to Maxis and change from prepaid to postpaid (this is still in deep consideration)

All/half of the above is only feasible if I'm well and enthusiasm level is not low.

Just Another Morning

My brother asked quite a serious question when I was about to start my breakfast earlier today.
"What would happen if one week prior to the wedding day, the bride confessed that she has someone else?" I dunno what triggered him to ask that question. My answer? "Call off the wedding." He then said  the groom must be very devastated. Quite a serious topic as a starter. But nevertheless, I continued the converstation. I said that it is better that she confessed and call off their wedding rather than continue living in a lie after the real thing is done. The longer it is kept, the worse the pain and damage will be. Plus end now when it is not too late...not end it when you already have bank loans and kids together.

I then tossed a question back to him. "Wouldn't it be a lot worse when you're already married to the man and few years down the lane, he confessed he loves someone else. And that mind you happens when you already think u have a stable life and yea..maybe a kid of two." His typical-male mind responded "Well, it is normal for a guy to do that but a woman?" I said too bad for the guy if the guy is nice when the girl is the bad one but I guess it is quite a lesson for guys when girls turn rotten. As much as I pity the nice guys and curse the bad girls, I can't help saying that both genders can be equally mean and MOST(not ALL) of the time, guys are the ones who drifted away and forget about the passion and love. How sad but I guess it happens..and yes, it is scary. Worst of all, the guy would drift out completely and leave the woman with all around the world to handles; from kids,food,house and all. How selfish. Is it really worthied to give it all away and hurt someone you once loved soooo deeply to be with another who suddenly juz pop out of nowhere. Is lust so important? Again, I do not say that this happen ALL the times and I am not saying that men is to be blamed or they are the ones who are always bad. Men sometimes are unfortunate enough to happen to end up with some rotten girls. =/

I added, the moment a woman decided to accept a guy's hand in marriage and promise to live with him ever after, she also believes and hopes she could live happily ever after with her one and only husband. When a woman vows, she believes her spouse feels the same and eventhough fairy tale may be too much to as for, it never hurt to be halfway from what the fairy tale is. The moment she gives, she gives it all. Now I really wonder if men feels the same way when they actually think about proposing to a woman he loves or claims he loves. The moment a woman gets pregnant, her everything changes too; phyisical, emotion and no doubt hormones. That is a lot. I hope this is all appreciated.

Our conversation didn't go any further but I told him, marriage is not an easy thing. Why commit when you know you can't? Don't hurt others. Though our conversation ended, my mind drifted away...deeper into the marriage subject. Come to think of it, it is pretty scary. How do I know if you are really the one? How can I know you feel the same way I do towards you? What guarantee do I have to give away my all? Does it mean anything to the man for me to accept him in my life forever? Would I be his only one til death do us part? Would he do his part to improve our lives? Would he think it is easy for me to accept all including his way of live, mentality and his family? When it all got clouded in my head, it put it all aside and will think when the time comes.

Kiehler

If there is one thing Kiehl's has become, it has become my favourite. I don't believe in splurging onto skin products. I believe in what works well for my skin. With that, my moisturizer and my facial cleanser remains the same since I was in 13. Others like make-ups, lipbalms and facial masque are added values.

I started of trying Kiehl's when I started worrying about my panda eyes. (Thanks Mr.Work) When I turned 25 recently, I know I'm 5 years to 30 =| (Can't we not go there?...) I guess the number is scarier than actually being there. Besides dark circles, I am becoming more aware of wrinkles specifically crow feet. I know it is all unavoidable as it is part of nature and yeah, there is no way we can turn back time and lie about our age. Anyhow, I believe this is a good time to start as I've not started earlier.

I can see that Kiehl's specializes on facial care and a lil bit of hair care. Don't bother looking for cosmetics there...OK? Why cover when you can fix, right?  My last visit to Kiehl's got me home with a Line-Reducing Eye-Brightening Concentrate. Expensive? Can't remember the exact price but it is about RM175. Bought it in April. Now we are in June, I believe I still have some to be used atleast til mid this month if not more. Worthied? You do the math.

I've been looking into the mirror and see that apart from dark circles, there is something else I need to care for; the puffy areas around my eyes! See, there are just sooooo many things a girl gotta think and care about and it all comes with a price and obviously DISCIPLINE.

Today, I dropped by KLCC to look for a lipbalm and something for the eye puffiness. (REALLY, thanks Mr.Work!) My lips can't deal with perfume....so too bad for me. No cherry/strawberry or any sort of perfumes content for me. =| So far, the lipstick which could work well with me is from M.A.C. I'm yet to try Bobbi Brown or Stage or ..... (it needs money and heart to try it out...it is a lot of risk for my lips to take sometimes). Anyhow, I ended up with what I needed, a lipbalm and an eye de-puffer.

Decisions could be quite hard. I was torn between 3 lipbalms; Original, lightly-tinted and mint. All the same texture. Price difference is minimal. I ended up with mint. I love mint. Mint is always refreshing. It is also their limited edition product this year...apparently.

I thought of getting a stronger formulae for my dark circles; not that the current one doesn't help but I can't help wanting something more and of coz stronger....but the one that I have is the strongest. Can't doubt that. Can feel the serum reacting as soon as I apply it. Nothing more a product can help with if I do not get enough sleep, right? So far it is doing fine. Expectation met. =) Hope the 2 new products will help me with my lips and the puffy area around my eyes.

If you are terrified to enter the store, don't be. The salespersons are friendly and they DO NOT force you to buy. Ask for what you want. If there is one thing Kiehl's knows best, it has got to be the power of giving. More often than not, you will definitely walk out of the store with samples. I see it as something very smart; marketing-wise. One of them must have put themselves in the customers' shoes. Why would you wanna buy products you're not sure of right? Why can't you try others by the same brand if one of their products is working well for you right? Nothing is wrong with giving a lil bit more. I guess they would say, "More often than not, customers come back to us wanting the fullsize of an item after they have sampled it." ;)

Expensive? Not really. The lipbalm is only RM35. The eye de-puffer is only RM75. Since Father's Day is just around the corner, you will get RM10 off for every RM100 purchase. Not too bad at all. As for the first product I bought, if you have not calculated, April to June is 3months. RM175/3 = RM58.33 per month. Expensive? My skin is more expensive. C'mon. Be real. We are not even talking about La Mer here. La Mer......I'm yet to have that much bucks =| Someday......................

Check out the cute paperbags! ^__^

The Very First Single Movie Ticket Bought

This may be normal to frequent movie-goers or movie fanatics. As for me, I love watching movies but I do not watch it too often coz most of the time, I'd pick reading over watching movies. To my little bunch of friends, the know that I will object to the idea of watching a movie when I've not met them in the longest time. I started REALLY watching movies in the cinema when I started dating my boyfriend. No doubt there are times I object watching movies due to time limitation; I'd rather walk around, talk and catch up. *you get the idea*

Ever since my bf went away, I seldom watch anymore movies. Guess I must have been busy or the feeling just doesn't come. I would be lying if I say that there is nothing I would like to watch but frustrations come with it when I don't get to watch it OR my bf watches w/o me. Selfish? I don't think so. I'm just so used to watch movies with him. Watching romance is a lot nicer when you have a companion. Let me know if you disagree. All these makes me forget all about movies. I barely even go to the cinema portals. *Why tempt when you can't have it rite? I don't like pulling myself down and live with frustrations!*

What I did today is what I've always wanted to do; experience watching movie alone! Odd? Ordinary? I was divided between Shrek 4 and Letters to Juliet. I picked Shrek 4 in 3D =) How I felt lining up alone? Nothing out of ordinary...maybe because I don't see couples being ridiculously annoying in front / around me. I was surround by a bunch of girls who couldn't decide what they wanna watch and some kids. The line wasn't long so nothing was in the context of toturing me.

Didn't get the center seat but managed to get a seat towards the end of the center cluster. 3 empty seats; I picked the middle one...just so that no silly couples will sit nearby! (forgodsake, I'm watching Shrek...not some Romeo&Juliet movie) Went into the cinema right away my ticket was printed. Picked up the 3D glasses alone. Wasn't odd. Went to my seat alone. No one picked up my bag to put it on the floor. I gotta say I got into the scene right on time. The moment I sat down, the dreamworks logo was displayed onto the screen.

Did I laughed during the show?
I did.

Did it feel odd being alone?
Nope.

Did I enjoy the movie?
Of coz!!! It is Shrek!!!

Would I do it again?
Definitely; IF I have the time and chance to. =p

p/s: After tonite, I wont' have to wonder how it feels to watch a movie alone anymore coz I'VE DONE IT! Not much diff compared to shopping and eating alone. It feels normal. I dunno about romantic movies but Shrek doesn't make me feel alone. *ngehngehngeh*

3 Years done

3 years may sound like a very long time. 3 years is the number of years I've spent to get my degree done. Long? I guess not quite compared to other fields. Let's see how much progress I've made since the point when I started working.

Spent 4months in a jap company as a tester. Pay was good. Distance isn't. Work-life balance was definitely there (coz it wasn't dark everytime i leave the office). Pretty much grasp the cycle of testing from planning to executing. Multi-tasked to 80%. Awesome 22inch" monitor.

Then....the jump happened. Flew to the company I'm with now. Fit in better. Spent a year and 2 months as a tester. Started managing defects seriously. There were few hectic times but it was fun..no doubt frustrating at times but it is all gewd.

Sent to another client for a couple of months...yes,another testing assignment. Mission was to get the client back on track in the testing schedule. Though short duration, I saw "colours" as another girl and I was somehow "lent" to the client. Fantastic experience.

Spent few months in the wonderful KLCC office. Lunch is about Kinokuniya and Subway. Had to live on basic pay. Be stuck at a nearby traffic light for atleast 3redlights before I actually get the chance to make a lil u-turn. Lived on basic salary but still had the crave for books and of coz clothes! Started blogging. Read quite a number of books. Did a number of online trainings. It was AWESOME!

Fun ended.

Posted to where I am now. Was clueless. No longer a tester but landed a role I can never imagine myself in; TA. Whoaaaaa! Dealt with few monsters. Patience level grew. Ignore button grew bigger at times to maintain patience level. =p Quite a one-man show back then but it is much better now; team is bigger and many has picked up more stuff. Fantastic? Awesome? Hmm...I'll say "Great!". My respond used to be "Still breathing and still alive" whenever anyone asks me how I am. The reply only came after a few moments of pause. Apparently, it is normal. I've bumped into some ppl who asks others the same q and I heard my answer being repeated. It is some kind of epidemic within the project i guess. LOL!

Along the way..besides WORK, there are fun stuff!
I've tried emceeing and actually enjoyed it...so did it maybe...3 times? It is fun.
Then I somehow got into the band..and the band is AWEEESSSOOMMMEEEE. =)
Best part of the 1st 3 years out of uni!

During lunch today, I googled to see what the company has or is still looking for and bumped into the following requirements tagged to my role. Lemme see how many of it I have.

• Supported in the capacity of Siebel Administration from end to end
• Installed Siebel from grounds up
• Setup and configure Siebel components
• Performed Siebel deployment
• Start / stop Siebel server
• Troubleshoot Siebel TA issues & error log analysis
• Experience with using Unix platform (HP-UX would be ideal)
• Basic database troubleshooting skills (preferably on Oracle database)
• Siebel module that is preferred: eCommunications (version 8.1. would be ideal)
• Siebel performance tuning (reviewing DB performance, identifying source of poor codes, app tier tuning like max / min tasks )
• Experience with Siebel integration with Avaya CTI
• Experience with Unix / Windows scripting
• Experience with a Production Support role for Siebel application
• Experience in a telecommunications environment will make you a top candidate for this position.
• 2-6 years of relevant experience
• Proven success in contributing to a team-oriented environment
• Proven ability to work creatively and analytically in a problem-solving environment
• Excellent communication (written and oral) and interpersonal skills
• Recognized University Degree
• Ability to meet travel requirements, when applicable

 Out of the above, I only do not have one of it. Not too bad,huh? ;)

That's the career-wise.

Life? Am I anywhere in life? Well, I bought a car. Does that count? Sure it does. I still keep in touch with my best friends everytime I get the chance to. That is something huge when you spend more than 80% of your lifetime with your colleagues in the office. I...mmmm am still reading and buying books. =p Now have some interest in baking and stuff. Patience level has gone higher. Heart could have grown harder. Head is closer to steel. Enthusiasm could be low on some elements but still fine. Other than that....everything is pretty much the same.......S.T.A.T.I.C.

On the side note...(or is this the foot already? :p), if anyone has the above mentioned qualities, kindly send me ur resume. =)