The birthday to remember.
Nothing awesome about the figure 26. Just a number some would say. Yeah, I agree. It it 4 years from being 30 from my point of view. :p If you're the half-full kind of person. Good for you.
Honestly, I've had so many birthdays in my life but this year is it different coz I have a husband. That's the only change.
I need to have this entry to let things out rather than go ranting everywhere in the cyberspace.
Everyone who knows me well enough would know how much fun I find in singing and reading. Don't think I wanna mention shopping coz it goes w/o saying. :p This year, the project decided to hold a project dinner at RedBox. How awesome is that? As much as I wished I could join and rock out, I declined.
Why? Coz my husband booked me right away. He said "Your evening is mine." Trust me. I was so happy. I've told him that I didn't want anything for my bday this year. Not a piece of cake. Not a piece of card. But when he said that, I believe that he would have his own plan. Atleast a dinner. It did not happen. The whole day was his but he had stuff so I told him to get his stuff done. I don't mind. One thing led to another thing. Time set was 2pm so when my bestfriend asked me out for lunch, I said "Let'z go!". That was wise. Coz it was the only meal I had. 2 awesome pastas shared. 2 delicious desserts shared. ^___^
Back to the dissappointment story. Everyone knows my work eats me up. So when I go onleave, I'm REALLY onleave. ALL OUT! When a day of leave gets wasted, I will be extremely sad. I dunno which bit went wrong. Called him at about 3:43pm. He said the entire day is ruinned. I didn't get it. It wasn't even 8pm. I don't even know what was ruinned. He hung up. I still didn't get my answer. Replied his parents' bday wish to say TQ. Then turned off my phone. Tadaa!
Minutes turned to hours. No signs of anything. Everyone must have believed that I'm having a blast with my husband. Sorry guys, I didn't so if I happen to look extremely blue the next day, please don't ask me why. Was hoping to check out the sofa I found for the house but I guess he is not that interested.
Did laundry. Hung the clothes and checked out of window if there's any sense of happiness or apology coming. None. Decided to clear up the shoe rack while I was taking out the vacuum cleaner. Took out the vacuum cleaner. Then vacuumed the entire house. Atleast I didn't waste my entire time moping around for nothing. Rocked out the sound system while I cleaned. Bathed. Lathered the shweeettt Vic Secret shower gel I bought last year before I got married. hahaha Awesome shower.
Read my book. Go to my laptop to type out this entry coz I need to lighten up my heart. He came back. I told him to gimme 5mins for me to juz put a place holder; I just want the entry to be on my birthday. He said he couldn't wait. Ironic. What is 5mins when that someone has waited yonks rite? :( I wish I can keep on saying it is unfair but I don't feel like it. He left the room. Thought he is juz getting something to drink. He turned on the TV. That marked the end of me. Fell asleep. He bathed..i think. He left the room. I woke up. No pillows. Went out...he was in the living room at his laptop. 2nd time over for me. Clickety click on the mouse. It didn't end. I couldn't fall back to dreamland again. Read some more. Still couldn't fall asleep..sucks. Shut the door. Forced myself to sleep. Eventually fell asleep....ahhhhhhh it was almost 3am I think.
Thank god I have Mr.Work to turn to. I know he needs me whenever. Mr.Book, he is always very loyal and obviously accommodating. I believe he loves me as much as I love him. He wouldn't mind me putting him aside for me to have other form of fun too. Super understanding. Don't you think? ;)
Letz do a lil recap on the birthdays I remember. Btw, I can't remember my 21st birthday.
Sweetest bday gift in life
18th. I thought my family forgot my birthday coz no one said anything about it since breakfast. So..who cares rite? Not that I wanted anything anyway. The clock struck 8:35pm when I was wiping the dining table after dinner when my dad suddenly said "Eh, what is the time now?" My mom said "This is the time when she's coming out." They then wished me happy birthday.
Best birthday bash in life
23rd. My parents threw it for me and my bro. They knew that would be the only time they get to do that and they want us to atleast experience it. It was awesome. BBQ at lvl 4. Unbelievable. 50 over ppl crammed in our apartment. Even more unbelievable. Everyone sang the bday song. It was sooooo awesome! ^__^ Was really the best birthday bash ever! Who said parents are not kewl about stuff? ;)
Ice-Cream Cake Bday
25th Bday. I dunno if there are any kids out there who never wished for an ice-cream cake. I've always wanted it but it is too pricey and my family didn't have that much to be spending on a cake. To cut long story short, it wasn't quite feasible. My colleagues decided to get an ice-cream cake from Baskin out of nowhere. There! My first ice-cream bday cake. :) I got it. Happy. Don't need anymore. The experience is nice. Some wishes take some time to come true but it does come true! Work is also not juz work. ;) Colleagues are friends too :) Apart from that, my bday was celebrated everyday of the week! I got slices of cakes the subsequent 2 days. One from the William the DBA; mille crepe! The other one from Ryan the phil bookaholic. Another bday meal from Joyce; OLIO! Everyday was a bday. Celebrated with my parents over the weekends. My bestfriend took me out for a steamboat buffet.
The Chinese-Style Bday Lunch
22nd Bday. Crown Princess Hotel. Celebrated with my godmother who happened to be my training supervisor too. Other guys who are friends with me at work were invited too. That includes the other 2 trainee guys I worked with. Nice lunch. :)
The Final High School Bday
17th. And at a fast food outlet. ;) Got a huge teddy from my besties. Cake was Tiramisu. My husband(then,my boyfriend) turned up. Took our first pic together. He gave me a lil kitten which very much resembled my late daughter when she was a kitten. I wore my fav top with my fav skirt. My classmate's cousin helped to deliver ALL my presents to my hse. How niceeee :) My parents sponsored the celebration. I bought the cake from a bakery nearby my hse and carried it on my own to the fastfood outlet.
Here are the stuff I did on my bday.
- Made the bed
- Had lunch with my bestest friend; the only meal I had on my bday.
- Settled a stupid personal loan at the bank.
- Refueled by car; didn't wash it coz it looked like it was gonna rain but it didn't in the end. >.< Mr.Rain is also a male.
- Did laundry.
- Vacuumed the entire house.
- Refilled the bottles in the fridge.
- Arranged my books I brought back from my MIL's place.
- Trash the unwanted shampoos from the rack in the bathroom my husband is using.
- Cleared out the shoe rack so that my husband has some space to put his shoes; at a brokenhearted point, I still wants things to be nice for him.
- Read some chapters in the book I'm currently reading.
- Reminisced moments spent with my family and wished they were still with me when my heart has been shattered. Cried. Bathed as the attempt to wash away my sorrow.
- Contemplated on whether I should head out for my own bday dinner or stay in. Couldn't decide so no dinner.
p/s: This post is meant to have the date of my bday this year but I failed coz I put the place holder in the bookblog instead. Dayummm!
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Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Friday, November 26, 2010
Itz OKAY
There are times I wonder if I would die earlier than many others. You may wonder why I came up with that kind of opening and no doubt many would be angry if I say it out loud. The "weight" I need to hold in my heart is at times too great. People normally say "What you give you get back". It is most of the time true when you treat someone badly. How about the case where you are the ears or shoulders one can lean on to through their hard times or simply a bad hair day? I doubt it still holds true. I don't think I get either of this in return. Esp lately...
As much as I do not want to pour things out I know I still need to coz I don't know how else I can lift up myself..the very least; my heart. Besides jotting important life events in a diary, I think the reason why one has it is to release a lil bit of weight from the heart. Best part of it, it only "listens" and not question your silly actions or thoughts. It is a world of its own. Here I am, attempting to lift myself a little in a virtual world. I love saving papers but this time, I'm glad it is not on paper; I would end up smudging words that I write not only with the hand I'm writing with but also with the tears that flow out together with the words.
WARNING : Contents may contain sharp objects in various sizes.
Many around me may think I'm either tired or stressed out with my remourseful look these days. If you have this cloud above your head, this post may clear it up as long as your cloud is not as big as mine. To answer the first thought, I am both tired and stressed out....plus dissappointed and confused...and no doubt frustrated. Heavy. I know. I'm thankful the keyboard won't tell me to be thankful and there are others with bigger issues and less fortunate out there. And it won't tell me to stop whining or blame PMS on the wrong date. *Phew!*
This goes in many degrees. From personal issue to workplace to colleague to family to .........maybe everything surrounding me...
ONE - Me, Myself and I
I know my weight is beyond help now that we are going to be in December in juz few days time. My skin...I don't wanna discuss it here. My hair...I don't wanna discuss it here too. Same for my teeth...no decays but there's something that needs to be done and it involves operation...letz not go there and plz dun question me.
TWO - My Nest
My room. ok..I've got 2 rooms. 1 is super tidy. The other is super untidy. I've started clearing up stuff but I simply have too many stuff that after the pause, I dunno where's the resume point. And yea, few days left. *Sweat* don't bother telling me to throw away stuff I don't need anymore as I've already done it. Thank you. And yes, the clothes will be sent to a place where the less fortunate can pick.
THREE - The Job, The People and The Workplace
It would be wrong to rant this out and to mention name and places. So I will leave that out. What I can say is that my job is all virtual. It involves complaints and problems and requests and whatnot...which are all vitual. :p My work is not a pile of books you can read or go through and mark it as REVIEWED. If you don't get this, you will never get this. Sorry if that comes out harsh but yea...I've explained this way too many times to some ppl but they still couldn't get it and still ask me the same question about my job. =| Even if your work involves complaints and stuff...it probably doesn't involve you solving the sutff that the ppl actually complain about. And no..I'm not saying I'm and important person or my job is better or busiest compared to the whole nation.
The people. Many types.
People who expects you to get things done even when they don't know what you have to do or have to go through to get it done. This is normally those who you have to impress or in my case, people I don't want to step the wrong foot on. I don't work to impress. I love impressing myself though. It gives me more satisfaction. What do I get when I satisfy others first? I dunno. =p Maybe heartache or tears. *There goes my pessimism. Pardon me in my current state of mind and emotion.*
Then, there are people who decides you need to do this piece of work without knowing what he has decided. Funny? Trust me. This species is quite dominant. And yes, they are normally bigger than you. They will juz say "I want to replace this door by tomorrow. I have promised the client. They have agreed. You can do it. Do it." What they do not know is what the activity involves and best of all, they don't have buffer when you found termites underneath the door frames. Sounds fantastic rite? *That's a lil bit of my sarcasm kickin' in* This group of people is annoying.
Bossyboots. This bunch is obviously more annoying. As much as it is painful to deal with people, I am actually a people-person. I care. If you need that someone to get something done for you, consider her situation and most importantly, ask him/her nicely. You definitely want her to put her heart to what you need her to do coz u want it perfectly done so why give her such a nervewrecking feeling rite? Common sense yo! Pest. Coz they pester. =p
The ones who look up to you. This lil group of ppl are not annoying. If you find them annoying, you need to fix yourself. This has nothing to do with boasting but coaching. Crucial coz you want the lil ones to know and understand things correctly. GIGO. Remember? Wait...incase you dunno, it is Garbage In Garbage Out. Worst part is, you will get mirrored as garbage too coz you taught them garbage AND since you triggered the garbage, you need to clear up the garbage. If you don't get this...I feel sorry for you.
Place. Not too much about it I guess juz how it is managed or rather slotted/divided/shared/.... in the current location. =\ Apart from that, the word privacy doesn't exist on this part of the universe. hoho I dunno how many friends would turn up at my wedding reception. Thank you. It will be very memorable. Thank you.
'Nuff bout work. It never ends.
If you still don't understand what I do for living, don't bother even trying. It will either break me or break you. Let it be. I will deal with it as I go with the flow. No point forecasting the subsequent months when no one knows what itz gonna be like.
FOUR - The Bells
It rang. And now it is getting louder coz it is getting nearer. Preparations? I don't quite know if 50% is done or not. There are things here and there and yea..EVERYWHERE. Last minute change of plans happens at almost every milestone. Set the date. Date was wrong so need to bring it fwd. Decided on the room. Got the furnitures and the curtains. Then feel like the room is wrong. The so-called correct room doesnt' even have the curtains matched to the theme.
One of my best pal said she may not be able to make it to the 1st reception. I didn't have the time to feel devastated. I juz know if it is true, then I will need to hunt for my other best pal and need to do it fast esp when there are clothes to match the theme rhequired. *sweat* The groom, no tux yet. His bestman...dunno bout clothes but maybe the person himself is probably not appointed yet. I dunno. Not within my control and being kaypo and not able to help is not good. This bestman needs to wear according to the theme. That's for first reception. 2nd reception, my bridesmaid's dress is probably(and hopefully) being tailored now coz I've given her the cloth weeks ago. The bestman...dunno who....dunno whether he has a suit or not...then again,according to many guys..it is more likely that they have a suit and it is easier to look for one even if they dun have one. Shirt is chicken feet...can get it from anywhere to match the theme. Would their green tones be of the same one? I dunno. No news. 3rd reception,last I heard...we will be wearing white. Haven't found the pair of clothing yet. Again. Not within my scope so not going to be a kpc. It will only annoy others. The bestman and bridesmaid...I dunno what they need to wear...what colour..which tone...i dunno. No news. Go ahead. Tell me to not worry about things which are not related to me. Thanks!
The rings. I'm glad I played the pester role coz it took almost a month to be ordered. And money doesnt' come from the sky too. This is done so it is not part of the rant. I still wanna put it here though. =p Sorry I pestered but didn't contribute.
The dowry....no news. I really dunno the status. If there is no diff, then my form is still pending. With the form still pending, what happens to the solemnization? I dunno.
What's left apart from the few mentioned? The room deco, hse deco, doorgifts, cakes, hand bouquets....ok..I can't think anymore....but trust me, there are many more. *sweat* Best of all, many can only be attended over the weekend (if i dun have to work) coz during weekdays, everything will be closed by the time I leave the workplace. Not that I don't have to work over the weekends, I normally request for late nite shift...so many to sacrifice. Run around to settle stuff during the day. Work late night til morning. Awesome. Wonder if any of this is appreciated at all.
One super thing which has been bugging my head and heart. Don't tell me how I should look. I won't accept something which will take my smile and mood away. It is MY wedding. Not yours. You had urs and now this is my turn. Sorry if this is harsh but you got it bugging me. Even after I've blurted out this sentence here, it is still there...bugging.
FIVE - The Gap and Uncertainties
As we swim deeper into the ocean, we meet many more kinds of fishes. These fishes understand and do things differently. This is The Gap. Wrong in your eyes. Correct in theirs. Nothing you can fix. Let it be. Keep on swimming and go with the flow.
What other creatures you come across and the actions you need to take if they welcome/attack you, you are wrong if you think you can foresee all this and plan what to be done. Why? Most of the time, you will still panic in the 5-feet swimming pool even when you know how to swim and 6-ft tall. Get the picture? All you can say is "If this and this happens, do A. If that doesn't workout, do B." To hardcode it will be recipe to failure so don't do it. Hardcoding will be very unwise if you work with big fishes who hold your future in the ocean.
Furthermore, you won't be swimming in the same ocean for long. Diff ocean may have diff spesies of fish. Trust me. You don't want to hardcode it. It will result in disappointments and I REALLY don't what that.
Guess I'm quite done. Mini facial done. Head is aching. Need to hit the sack.
p/s: Hope I can come up with something happy in my next post. Good luck to myself.
Note to self : No one can love you as much as you love yourself. Pamper yourself. Treat yourself nicely. You know you are the only one who can be as nice to yourself.
As much as I do not want to pour things out I know I still need to coz I don't know how else I can lift up myself..the very least; my heart. Besides jotting important life events in a diary, I think the reason why one has it is to release a lil bit of weight from the heart. Best part of it, it only "listens" and not question your silly actions or thoughts. It is a world of its own. Here I am, attempting to lift myself a little in a virtual world. I love saving papers but this time, I'm glad it is not on paper; I would end up smudging words that I write not only with the hand I'm writing with but also with the tears that flow out together with the words.
WARNING : Contents may contain sharp objects in various sizes.
Many around me may think I'm either tired or stressed out with my remourseful look these days. If you have this cloud above your head, this post may clear it up as long as your cloud is not as big as mine. To answer the first thought, I am both tired and stressed out....plus dissappointed and confused...and no doubt frustrated. Heavy. I know. I'm thankful the keyboard won't tell me to be thankful and there are others with bigger issues and less fortunate out there. And it won't tell me to stop whining or blame PMS on the wrong date. *Phew!*
This goes in many degrees. From personal issue to workplace to colleague to family to .........maybe everything surrounding me...
ONE - Me, Myself and I
I know my weight is beyond help now that we are going to be in December in juz few days time. My skin...I don't wanna discuss it here. My hair...I don't wanna discuss it here too. Same for my teeth...no decays but there's something that needs to be done and it involves operation...letz not go there and plz dun question me.
TWO - My Nest
My room. ok..I've got 2 rooms. 1 is super tidy. The other is super untidy. I've started clearing up stuff but I simply have too many stuff that after the pause, I dunno where's the resume point. And yea, few days left. *Sweat* don't bother telling me to throw away stuff I don't need anymore as I've already done it. Thank you. And yes, the clothes will be sent to a place where the less fortunate can pick.
THREE - The Job, The People and The Workplace
It would be wrong to rant this out and to mention name and places. So I will leave that out. What I can say is that my job is all virtual. It involves complaints and problems and requests and whatnot...which are all vitual. :p My work is not a pile of books you can read or go through and mark it as REVIEWED. If you don't get this, you will never get this. Sorry if that comes out harsh but yea...I've explained this way too many times to some ppl but they still couldn't get it and still ask me the same question about my job. =| Even if your work involves complaints and stuff...it probably doesn't involve you solving the sutff that the ppl actually complain about. And no..I'm not saying I'm and important person or my job is better or busiest compared to the whole nation.
The people. Many types.
People who expects you to get things done even when they don't know what you have to do or have to go through to get it done. This is normally those who you have to impress or in my case, people I don't want to step the wrong foot on. I don't work to impress. I love impressing myself though. It gives me more satisfaction. What do I get when I satisfy others first? I dunno. =p Maybe heartache or tears. *There goes my pessimism. Pardon me in my current state of mind and emotion.*
Then, there are people who decides you need to do this piece of work without knowing what he has decided. Funny? Trust me. This species is quite dominant. And yes, they are normally bigger than you. They will juz say "I want to replace this door by tomorrow. I have promised the client. They have agreed. You can do it. Do it." What they do not know is what the activity involves and best of all, they don't have buffer when you found termites underneath the door frames. Sounds fantastic rite? *That's a lil bit of my sarcasm kickin' in* This group of people is annoying.
Bossyboots. This bunch is obviously more annoying. As much as it is painful to deal with people, I am actually a people-person. I care. If you need that someone to get something done for you, consider her situation and most importantly, ask him/her nicely. You definitely want her to put her heart to what you need her to do coz u want it perfectly done so why give her such a nervewrecking feeling rite? Common sense yo! Pest. Coz they pester. =p
The ones who look up to you. This lil group of ppl are not annoying. If you find them annoying, you need to fix yourself. This has nothing to do with boasting but coaching. Crucial coz you want the lil ones to know and understand things correctly. GIGO. Remember? Wait...incase you dunno, it is Garbage In Garbage Out. Worst part is, you will get mirrored as garbage too coz you taught them garbage AND since you triggered the garbage, you need to clear up the garbage. If you don't get this...I feel sorry for you.
Place. Not too much about it I guess juz how it is managed or rather slotted/divided/shared/.... in the current location. =\ Apart from that, the word privacy doesn't exist on this part of the universe. hoho I dunno how many friends would turn up at my wedding reception. Thank you. It will be very memorable. Thank you.
'Nuff bout work. It never ends.
If you still don't understand what I do for living, don't bother even trying. It will either break me or break you. Let it be. I will deal with it as I go with the flow. No point forecasting the subsequent months when no one knows what itz gonna be like.
FOUR - The Bells
It rang. And now it is getting louder coz it is getting nearer. Preparations? I don't quite know if 50% is done or not. There are things here and there and yea..EVERYWHERE. Last minute change of plans happens at almost every milestone. Set the date. Date was wrong so need to bring it fwd. Decided on the room. Got the furnitures and the curtains. Then feel like the room is wrong. The so-called correct room doesnt' even have the curtains matched to the theme.
One of my best pal said she may not be able to make it to the 1st reception. I didn't have the time to feel devastated. I juz know if it is true, then I will need to hunt for my other best pal and need to do it fast esp when there are clothes to match the theme rhequired. *sweat* The groom, no tux yet. His bestman...dunno bout clothes but maybe the person himself is probably not appointed yet. I dunno. Not within my control and being kaypo and not able to help is not good. This bestman needs to wear according to the theme. That's for first reception. 2nd reception, my bridesmaid's dress is probably(and hopefully) being tailored now coz I've given her the cloth weeks ago. The bestman...dunno who....dunno whether he has a suit or not...then again,according to many guys..it is more likely that they have a suit and it is easier to look for one even if they dun have one. Shirt is chicken feet...can get it from anywhere to match the theme. Would their green tones be of the same one? I dunno. No news. 3rd reception,last I heard...we will be wearing white. Haven't found the pair of clothing yet. Again. Not within my scope so not going to be a kpc. It will only annoy others. The bestman and bridesmaid...I dunno what they need to wear...what colour..which tone...i dunno. No news. Go ahead. Tell me to not worry about things which are not related to me. Thanks!
The rings. I'm glad I played the pester role coz it took almost a month to be ordered. And money doesnt' come from the sky too. This is done so it is not part of the rant. I still wanna put it here though. =p Sorry I pestered but didn't contribute.
The dowry....no news. I really dunno the status. If there is no diff, then my form is still pending. With the form still pending, what happens to the solemnization? I dunno.
What's left apart from the few mentioned? The room deco, hse deco, doorgifts, cakes, hand bouquets....ok..I can't think anymore....but trust me, there are many more. *sweat* Best of all, many can only be attended over the weekend (if i dun have to work) coz during weekdays, everything will be closed by the time I leave the workplace. Not that I don't have to work over the weekends, I normally request for late nite shift...so many to sacrifice. Run around to settle stuff during the day. Work late night til morning. Awesome. Wonder if any of this is appreciated at all.
One super thing which has been bugging my head and heart. Don't tell me how I should look. I won't accept something which will take my smile and mood away. It is MY wedding. Not yours. You had urs and now this is my turn. Sorry if this is harsh but you got it bugging me. Even after I've blurted out this sentence here, it is still there...bugging.
FIVE - The Gap and Uncertainties
As we swim deeper into the ocean, we meet many more kinds of fishes. These fishes understand and do things differently. This is The Gap. Wrong in your eyes. Correct in theirs. Nothing you can fix. Let it be. Keep on swimming and go with the flow.
What other creatures you come across and the actions you need to take if they welcome/attack you, you are wrong if you think you can foresee all this and plan what to be done. Why? Most of the time, you will still panic in the 5-feet swimming pool even when you know how to swim and 6-ft tall. Get the picture? All you can say is "If this and this happens, do A. If that doesn't workout, do B." To hardcode it will be recipe to failure so don't do it. Hardcoding will be very unwise if you work with big fishes who hold your future in the ocean.
Furthermore, you won't be swimming in the same ocean for long. Diff ocean may have diff spesies of fish. Trust me. You don't want to hardcode it. It will result in disappointments and I REALLY don't what that.
Guess I'm quite done. Mini facial done. Head is aching. Need to hit the sack.
p/s: Hope I can come up with something happy in my next post. Good luck to myself.
Note to self : No one can love you as much as you love yourself. Pamper yourself. Treat yourself nicely. You know you are the only one who can be as nice to yourself.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Oh so colourful!
I sometimes view the analytics of my blog..ya know..just for the fun of it. Well, why blog if it isn't fun? :p
If i could paint the week, I'll have to pick solemn colours as the week started with sickness. Was in bed on Monday and Tuesday. When I got back to work Wednesday onwards, the week simple suck....don't bother asking me why coz I don't wanna revisit the week. Hope the solemness won't linger til next week.
In the virtual world..or rather my blog, it seems to be preffy colourful. I've seen fractions of visitors' origins but maybe this the the first time I've seen this many fractions and of coz COLOURS! *Can't help wondering if they will run out of colours if there are more countries popping out*
If i could paint the week, I'll have to pick solemn colours as the week started with sickness. Was in bed on Monday and Tuesday. When I got back to work Wednesday onwards, the week simple suck....don't bother asking me why coz I don't wanna revisit the week. Hope the solemness won't linger til next week.
In the virtual world..or rather my blog, it seems to be preffy colourful. I've seen fractions of visitors' origins but maybe this the the first time I've seen this many fractions and of coz COLOURS! *Can't help wondering if they will run out of colours if there are more countries popping out*
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Series of Unfortunate Events on a Tuesday
I don't remember getting up from the wrong side of the bed in the morning. I don't remember doing anything unusual at all to get my day started but it simply wasn't my day.
1. Nausea in the morning.
2. Almost left the house without wearing a watch. (Yes,this is something not right for me.)
3. Bumped into someone's car and triggered the other car's alarm...
4. Didn't lock my car after I parked my car and left for dinner.
5. Hit the curb when I parked my car back at the office after dinner.
6. Had mount point issues in the servers I was supposed to patch.
7. Had patch installer issues....it didn't detect my servers. *sweat*
8. Number 6 and 7 held me back at work.
9. The construction worker decided to close the road I normally used to send my colleague home; I got lost! Mind you, it was alredy 11:45pm.
10. Reached home. No parking...had to park many blocks away from my block.
11. Almost reached my floor, saw a huge moth at the stairs. *scared!*
12. Realized I did not bring back my new shower gels I've been wanting to use to wash away dissappointments. Called a colleague who happened to still be in the office and requested him to take 'em back.
13. A stupid insect appeared in my room when all I wanted to do is fly away to my dreamland.
14. My bf gave an answer which I hope to negate.
I hope item number 14 stops the series.......May tomorrow be a better day. And yeah, it shed a tear.
1. Nausea in the morning.
2. Almost left the house without wearing a watch. (Yes,this is something not right for me.)
3. Bumped into someone's car and triggered the other car's alarm...
4. Didn't lock my car after I parked my car and left for dinner.
5. Hit the curb when I parked my car back at the office after dinner.
6. Had mount point issues in the servers I was supposed to patch.
7. Had patch installer issues....it didn't detect my servers. *sweat*
8. Number 6 and 7 held me back at work.
9. The construction worker decided to close the road I normally used to send my colleague home; I got lost! Mind you, it was alredy 11:45pm.
10. Reached home. No parking...had to park many blocks away from my block.
11. Almost reached my floor, saw a huge moth at the stairs. *scared!*
12. Realized I did not bring back my new shower gels I've been wanting to use to wash away dissappointments. Called a colleague who happened to still be in the office and requested him to take 'em back.
13. A stupid insect appeared in my room when all I wanted to do is fly away to my dreamland.
14. My bf gave an answer which I hope to negate.
I hope item number 14 stops the series.......May tomorrow be a better day. And yeah, it shed a tear.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
3-Days Weekends!
Could someone please tell me how and who came up with the idea that weekends only have 2days? How is work-life balance even possible with only 2 out of 7 days being weekends? *Sigh!* At the current settings, the load is heavier on the work scale. *Soooo much for balance, eh?*
3days in a weekend starting from Friday would be the greatest ever!
Friday - Spring cleaning day.
Saturday - Shopping day! Buying groceries day and etc.
Sunday - REST day. Enjoy-being-at-home day. Baking day. Eat-at-home day.
Lovely, ain't it?
Can someone pleaseeeee do something about this? Just because it has been set centuries ago, it doesn't mean it can't be changed!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Beauty of the word ALONE
Despite the contrary view, the word alone does not necessarily relate to the word loner. It is time that everyone of us view this word from a different angle and see it in a different light.
Being alone does not make you loner. In fact, it could actually show that you are independent and happy. Well, I am not saying that everyone should be alone. That would be against the human nature as we are all made in pairs. Else God won't create Eve for Adam. ;)
Heard of the following quotations before?
"Eagles fly solo" -Unknown-
I normally say this to myself; "I was in my mother's womb alone. Brought to this world alone. I survived."
I am not indicating that I do not need anyone in my life but all of us could actually do well with some time to ourselves. This is what I call me-time. I love hanging out with my friends and spending time with my family but quality me-time is essential for me to keep going and keep myself motivated.
Why me-time is great?
1. It helps you to keep in touch with yourself.
2. It helps you to look at yourself and really identify what is not right.
3. People will most of the time disappoint you and break your heart.
4. Having expectations set on others are no fun. Setting expectations on ourselves goes a loooooonnnggg way.
5. It is zen. ^_^
6. You need not deal with others and free to go with your own will.
7. Things are a lot less complicated when we deal only with one person. :p
To my dear friends, I need you. I love having you guys. I believe most of you love your me-time too. ;) It is great to share our fraction of life with friends, right? Hope you feel the same.
There are times when you REALLY need the other someone to make something in your life happens and let me tell you that that moment sucks and hurts big time. In the end, I know I will have to find me own way to deal with the disappointment so that I can be happy. Why let that lil someone bring you down? You are worth your feelings.
Anyhow, you belong to yourself. Only you can decide how to make yourself happy because you know yourself better than anyone else. Your life is yours. You share it but never give it away. That is how life is. =)
Please take note that I DO NOT write this out of sorrow. I write it to bring myself up and set aside some disappointments I am feeling right now; too personal to be broadcasted. You can continue disappointing me but I have already made up my mind; not to let others bring me down. With that, I have no expectations set what-so-ever because it will hurt me I know.
When I don't mention about something, it shows that it is not significant.
When it is not significant, I no longer think about it.
I no longer think about it because I either don't want it anymore or I do not want it from you anymore. What I want most is to be happy. If no one could make me happy, I will find ways to make myself happy. I know somewhere out there, I have a bunch of friends who can make me happy and I'm grateful. I know for sure I am happy with my family though it may be difficult at times. Guess nothing is as easy in life. =
Being alone does not make you loner. In fact, it could actually show that you are independent and happy. Well, I am not saying that everyone should be alone. That would be against the human nature as we are all made in pairs. Else God won't create Eve for Adam. ;)
Heard of the following quotations before?
"Eagles fly solo" -Unknown-
I normally say this to myself; "I was in my mother's womb alone. Brought to this world alone. I survived."
I am not indicating that I do not need anyone in my life but all of us could actually do well with some time to ourselves. This is what I call me-time. I love hanging out with my friends and spending time with my family but quality me-time is essential for me to keep going and keep myself motivated.
Why me-time is great?
1. It helps you to keep in touch with yourself.
2. It helps you to look at yourself and really identify what is not right.
3. People will most of the time disappoint you and break your heart.
4. Having expectations set on others are no fun. Setting expectations on ourselves goes a loooooonnnggg way.
5. It is zen. ^_^
6. You need not deal with others and free to go with your own will.
7. Things are a lot less complicated when we deal only with one person. :p
To my dear friends, I need you. I love having you guys. I believe most of you love your me-time too. ;) It is great to share our fraction of life with friends, right? Hope you feel the same.
There are times when you REALLY need the other someone to make something in your life happens and let me tell you that that moment sucks and hurts big time. In the end, I know I will have to find me own way to deal with the disappointment so that I can be happy. Why let that lil someone bring you down? You are worth your feelings.
Anyhow, you belong to yourself. Only you can decide how to make yourself happy because you know yourself better than anyone else. Your life is yours. You share it but never give it away. That is how life is. =)
Please take note that I DO NOT write this out of sorrow. I write it to bring myself up and set aside some disappointments I am feeling right now; too personal to be broadcasted. You can continue disappointing me but I have already made up my mind; not to let others bring me down. With that, I have no expectations set what-so-ever because it will hurt me I know.
When I don't mention about something, it shows that it is not significant.
When it is not significant, I no longer think about it.
I no longer think about it because I either don't want it anymore or I do not want it from you anymore. What I want most is to be happy. If no one could make me happy, I will find ways to make myself happy. I know somewhere out there, I have a bunch of friends who can make me happy and I'm grateful. I know for sure I am happy with my family though it may be difficult at times. Guess nothing is as easy in life. =
Monday, November 30, 2009
I don't get it!!!
Aren't taxi drivers supposed to help ppl get from A to point B and get paid for it? Aren't they driving taxis? What kind of service are these people offering again?
I flagged down a cab yesterday to meet up my bestfriend in midvalley before we head to Amcorp Mall.
Read on the following comverstation exchanged between the driver and I.
Taxi stopped.
Ruz : I'd like to go to midvalley.
Taxi driver : I don't go there.I don't want.
Ruz : Ampark park station then.
Taxi driver : Ok. (with a stupid smirk on his face)
I hopped into the cab and thought about my route coz I felt like waking around the mall before I meet up with my bestfriend so I thought of going to Bangsar station ad hail another cab from there.
Ruz : Could you take me to bangsar let station instead?
Taxi driver : No. Be done with Ampang Park. I don't want to go to the oher area; jam. (the look on his face when he responded made me feel like giving him a tight slap but my hands are too clean to be placed on his face. =p )
I kept quiet and got off at Ampang Park station. And no, I didn't get to go to midvalley. =\
I really wonder :
- WHY can't he take me to somewhere I wanna go to?I'll be paying him bucks.Every km counts. Every second counts!what is his problem???
- If driving passenger sto the place they need to go to isn't the service u are providing, what is? Go to to your house and visit your grandma????!!!!?!?!?
- Who told him to be a taxi driver? I know I didn't. Do Malaysia a favour. Quit driving. Find a job you can sincerely do.
Thank you.
I flagged down a cab yesterday to meet up my bestfriend in midvalley before we head to Amcorp Mall.
Read on the following comverstation exchanged between the driver and I.
Taxi stopped.
Ruz : I'd like to go to midvalley.
Taxi driver : I don't go there.I don't want.
Ruz : Ampark park station then.
Taxi driver : Ok. (with a stupid smirk on his face)
I hopped into the cab and thought about my route coz I felt like waking around the mall before I meet up with my bestfriend so I thought of going to Bangsar station ad hail another cab from there.
Ruz : Could you take me to bangsar let station instead?
Taxi driver : No. Be done with Ampang Park. I don't want to go to the oher area; jam. (the look on his face when he responded made me feel like giving him a tight slap but my hands are too clean to be placed on his face. =p )
I kept quiet and got off at Ampang Park station. And no, I didn't get to go to midvalley. =\
I really wonder :
- WHY can't he take me to somewhere I wanna go to?I'll be paying him bucks.Every km counts. Every second counts!what is his problem???
- If driving passenger sto the place they need to go to isn't the service u are providing, what is? Go to to your house and visit your grandma????!!!!?!?!?
- Who told him to be a taxi driver? I know I didn't. Do Malaysia a favour. Quit driving. Find a job you can sincerely do.
Thank you.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
How I Describe Tech Arch. Role
If you do not know what Technical Architecture is, ask Mr.Google coz I'm not gonna type much here.Why? Coz I'm not allowed to.
Anyway, to my bunch of friends who has been complaining why I no longer have time to hangout and can't plan to hangout with them...here it is. My role is a Never Ending Story with comes with multiple Series of Unfortunate Events.
With that, do not tell me to clear up my work becoz there is no way I can say I've completed my work. OK?
Thanks.
p/s:I'm not complaining but EXPLAINING.
Anyway, to my bunch of friends who has been complaining why I no longer have time to hangout and can't plan to hangout with them...here it is. My role is a Never Ending Story with comes with multiple Series of Unfortunate Events.
With that, do not tell me to clear up my work becoz there is no way I can say I've completed my work. OK?
Thanks.
p/s:I'm not complaining but EXPLAINING.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Domestic Day and the Jam
Firstly, I would like to thank Ms.Jam for making life more complicated that it already is.
About 70% of my life is spent in KL but I never had to go through too many jams in a day just to get to my destination. How nice Ms.Jam.
Recently, I just got posted to another project and yea...new client side.
Can't believe the number of jams i have to go through. Well, this may be perfectly normal for many others but not quite for me. I've been living in KL for a say....70% the years in my life. My school is in KL. I stayin KL and i even hang out in KL. Jam should be in my lifeline? How wrong. Hahahaha
Anyway, I think the jams are causing my headaches lately. Hope I won't continue being like this coz I need to work! I've been leaving home early ever since but doens't help much. :( Ms.Jam, not only u're eating up my time and energy, you are also eating up my money! And you make people pollute the air even more than they would normally do without you!
Under the current situation, I'll have to allocate some hours over the weekends to get my laundry and ironing done. Urgh!
Btw, Mr.Prime Minister, do what you're expected to do and let us have the privilegde to claim for the parking fare. K? The basement parking isn't that great anyway so being able to claim would cool us down a lil. Thanks.
About 70% of my life is spent in KL but I never had to go through too many jams in a day just to get to my destination. How nice Ms.Jam.
Recently, I just got posted to another project and yea...new client side.
Can't believe the number of jams i have to go through. Well, this may be perfectly normal for many others but not quite for me. I've been living in KL for a say....70% the years in my life. My school is in KL. I stayin KL and i even hang out in KL. Jam should be in my lifeline? How wrong. Hahahaha
Anyway, I think the jams are causing my headaches lately. Hope I won't continue being like this coz I need to work! I've been leaving home early ever since but doens't help much. :( Ms.Jam, not only u're eating up my time and energy, you are also eating up my money! And you make people pollute the air even more than they would normally do without you!
Under the current situation, I'll have to allocate some hours over the weekends to get my laundry and ironing done. Urgh!
Btw, Mr.Prime Minister, do what you're expected to do and let us have the privilegde to claim for the parking fare. K? The basement parking isn't that great anyway so being able to claim would cool us down a lil. Thanks.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Die unhealthy or die in poverty
Why are healthy foods more expensive than unhealthy ones???
Is it just like this in Malaysia or what? Btw, don't tell me it is cheap if i pack up my own food. I'm focusing on the food we buy when we're outside..ya know the ones we have in shopping malls and foodcourts. =p
Easiest comparison is between the white bread and the wheatmeal bread. Letz not go to too many brands and look at Gardenia's. Check out the price. RM2.10 and RM2.90. RM2.90 is for the healthier bread. *siiggghhh* White bread taste better and it is cheaper.
Others? Fried noodles and nasi lemak is cheaper than 6inch sandwich in Subway. Now that Subway has their Sandwich of The Day promo, it is only RM7.50. Still can't beat the RM5 per plate fried noodles and RM2.50 nasi lemak.
Here's the very sad part.
99% Fat free ice cream : ~RM8 - RM10 per scoop/cup.
99% Fat ice cream : RM1 from McDonald's, Burger King and IKEA!
Smoothies from the Smoothies bar taste soooo gewd and I love it. Juices from Juice Works are not bad too...but I can dream on drinking those and only pay RM2 or RM3 per glass. Canned softdrinks won't cost >RM2.50 per can. *siiiggghhhhh* Drink plain water? I do. I bring my 600ml plain water to work everyday but I still love the nice drinks! But due to the "affordable" price, I seldom have it. :\
This post is about the price we have to pay for healthier food. Don't bother telling me to pack my food or go for a jog. K? =p
Is it just like this in Malaysia or what? Btw, don't tell me it is cheap if i pack up my own food. I'm focusing on the food we buy when we're outside..ya know the ones we have in shopping malls and foodcourts. =p
Easiest comparison is between the white bread and the wheatmeal bread. Letz not go to too many brands and look at Gardenia's. Check out the price. RM2.10 and RM2.90. RM2.90 is for the healthier bread. *siiggghhh* White bread taste better and it is cheaper.
Others? Fried noodles and nasi lemak is cheaper than 6inch sandwich in Subway. Now that Subway has their Sandwich of The Day promo, it is only RM7.50. Still can't beat the RM5 per plate fried noodles and RM2.50 nasi lemak.
Here's the very sad part.
99% Fat free ice cream : ~RM8 - RM10 per scoop/cup.
99% Fat ice cream : RM1 from McDonald's, Burger King and IKEA!
Smoothies from the Smoothies bar taste soooo gewd and I love it. Juices from Juice Works are not bad too...but I can dream on drinking those and only pay RM2 or RM3 per glass. Canned softdrinks won't cost >RM2.50 per can. *siiiggghhhhh* Drink plain water? I do. I bring my 600ml plain water to work everyday but I still love the nice drinks! But due to the "affordable" price, I seldom have it. :\
This post is about the price we have to pay for healthier food. Don't bother telling me to pack my food or go for a jog. K? =p
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Lunatic
I had 2 phone calls while I was out today. Both callers told my bestfriend and I don't have anything better to do. Here'z the thing. Both of us didn't feel like driving. We also don't wish to get stuck in the traffic esp when we are going to enter the city during lunch. Besides all that, we wanna save some bucks too. =p
What have we done to be given such remarks? I picked her up from her house and parked at an LRT station quite in the middle of her house and mine. We took the train to KLCC and walked to Low Yat. Are you gonna call us nuts now? Go ahead. We used to walk alot alot when we were back in school. Walking from the school to LRT station is nothing and it is not even far; just about 10-15mins walk. I've managed less than 10mins too...well, itz not far and I used to walk extremely fast. Where else have I walked to? Mmm...
1. From school to a friends house in Kg. Baru.
2. From a friend's house in Damai to Ampang Park..then to my hse..multiple times.
3. From school to my house.
4. From Ampang Point to my house.
5. From an LRT station (can't remember which station) to a friend's house in TTDI.
Furthest is number 3..think it is about 15km and nearest would be number 4.
When I was back in uni, I used to walk to anywhere I wanna go to in the campus coz I've got no car...and the feeder bus sux back then (not too sure about now..). Sometimes my friends and I would go down the apartment to take a walk too...ya know, juz to enjoy the air and chat. =)
Walking helps ease my mind too.
When is the best to walk?
1. Right after it stops raining.
2. At night. Especially when it is windy. =)
What I regret about walking? I dunno how true this is but it makes my legs big. =( I talked about it with my bestfriend...looks like we both have the same opinion. = If I were to mention this to my colleagues, they might not believe it. Ruz walked? Seriously? She could? =p
Yes guys. I walked. Well, I still love walked. LEISURELY. ;) And no..I'm not interested in hiking and the likes. =p Sowie. I mall-hop from time to time too. =p
What I do while I walk? Mmm...if i'm with a friend or two, we'll talk...sometimes sing. =p well...it all depends on the situation; can't juz sing when there's too many passerbyZ. =p Some other times, I would sing to myself...but most of the time, I do alot of thinking along the way.
Anyway, driving could sometimes increase the risk of drivers getting heart attacks or depression. Why? Too many "funny" drivers on the road to just get on our nerves. URGH! some has too much patience that the drive super slowly like that have 50hours per day. Some has no patience that they honk you to move forward even when the car in front of you is static. URGH. How smart. Guyz stop complaining about women drivers. Trust me. There are alot of funny drivers who are males out there. I've encountered many today. IT SUX!!!!!
At times like this, it is a lot better to walk in the sun. Atleast I get to walk and clear my mind. =p
Feel free to argue. I saved my petrol. Best of all, I paid 0bucks for parking today. Muahahaha
What have we done to be given such remarks? I picked her up from her house and parked at an LRT station quite in the middle of her house and mine. We took the train to KLCC and walked to Low Yat. Are you gonna call us nuts now? Go ahead. We used to walk alot alot when we were back in school. Walking from the school to LRT station is nothing and it is not even far; just about 10-15mins walk. I've managed less than 10mins too...well, itz not far and I used to walk extremely fast. Where else have I walked to? Mmm...
1. From school to a friends house in Kg. Baru.
2. From a friend's house in Damai to Ampang Park..then to my hse..multiple times.
3. From school to my house.
4. From Ampang Point to my house.
5. From an LRT station (can't remember which station) to a friend's house in TTDI.
Furthest is number 3..think it is about 15km and nearest would be number 4.
When I was back in uni, I used to walk to anywhere I wanna go to in the campus coz I've got no car...and the feeder bus sux back then (not too sure about now..). Sometimes my friends and I would go down the apartment to take a walk too...ya know, juz to enjoy the air and chat. =)
Walking helps ease my mind too.
When is the best to walk?
1. Right after it stops raining.
2. At night. Especially when it is windy. =)
What I regret about walking? I dunno how true this is but it makes my legs big. =( I talked about it with my bestfriend...looks like we both have the same opinion. = If I were to mention this to my colleagues, they might not believe it. Ruz walked? Seriously? She could? =p
Yes guys. I walked. Well, I still love walked. LEISURELY. ;) And no..I'm not interested in hiking and the likes. =p Sowie. I mall-hop from time to time too. =p
What I do while I walk? Mmm...if i'm with a friend or two, we'll talk...sometimes sing. =p well...it all depends on the situation; can't juz sing when there's too many passerbyZ. =p Some other times, I would sing to myself...but most of the time, I do alot of thinking along the way.
Anyway, driving could sometimes increase the risk of drivers getting heart attacks or depression. Why? Too many "funny" drivers on the road to just get on our nerves. URGH! some has too much patience that the drive super slowly like that have 50hours per day. Some has no patience that they honk you to move forward even when the car in front of you is static. URGH. How smart. Guyz stop complaining about women drivers. Trust me. There are alot of funny drivers who are males out there. I've encountered many today. IT SUX!!!!!
At times like this, it is a lot better to walk in the sun. Atleast I get to walk and clear my mind. =p
Feel free to argue. I saved my petrol. Best of all, I paid 0bucks for parking today. Muahahaha
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Today?Wasn't it yesterday?OR was it the day before?
I hate routines...lol
Well..not completely.
My daily routine as of now.(in detail :p)
-Wake up.
-Help mum with breakfast.
-Wake my broz.
-Eat breakfast.
-Pray.
-Read book.
-Bathe..think what to wear while doing so.
-Get dressed to work.(face cream,legs cream..clothes,brush my hair,put on my lotion,powder my face,a lil bit of crayon :p and finally spritz some perfume)
-Leave house...lock the door and gate.
-Enter my car.
-Turn on the radio.
-Turn on the aircond.
-Lock the door if it doesn't get locked.
-Cram in between cars on the road.
-Pray hard there is atleast one parking space left in the open carpark behind the client building.
-Enter the carpark.
-Park my car.
-Turn off the engine.
-Lock the steering.
-Lock the door.
-Turn on the alarm.
-Walk towards the building.
-Call my bf who is still soundly asleep.
-Take the lift up.
-Tag myself at the main door.
-Tag myself at the Consultant Lab door.
-Take out my latop.Turn it on.
-Take out my mouse, LAN cable and power adapter.
-Connect the LAN cable and mouse.
-Connect the power adapter.
-Log into my laptop.
-Log into Ms Outlook.
-Launch many other stuff :p
-.....
-.......
-Pack my stuff.Tag myself out of the building.
-Pay the parking ticket while praying hard i have enough change.
-Drive home.
-Wash my hands,face and feet.
-change into comfy clothes.
-Eat dinner.
-Clean up table.
-.........
Well,not gonna bore u anymore...
i'm bored typing the boring routines already *sighhhh*
Anyhow, i juz wanna say that somethings are TOO routinely(is there such word?) done that we tend to not know whether i've done it today or not.
E.g. I went to the loo juz now..had to tag myself out and stuff...but i don't remember taggin myself in before that juz coz i've done it every single day.
Everytime i leave the seat, i wonder if i've packed all my stuff into my bag.
Everytime i locked my car and walk away...i wonder if i've already really locked my car...or was it yesterday that i did so.
Urgh....signs of ageing? I don't think so.
Signs of too repeatedly done? Absoloutely YES!
The good thing about doing routine stuff is...u're familiar with them and tend to do it well....
As for my trouble about not being productive at my previous role...
i found a quote for myself :
"While you are crossing the chasm, you are unproductive because you are in unfamiliarterritory." - Joe Walker -
Well..not completely.
My daily routine as of now.(in detail :p)
-Wake up.
-Help mum with breakfast.
-Wake my broz.
-Eat breakfast.
-Pray.
-Read book.
-Bathe..think what to wear while doing so.
-Get dressed to work.(face cream,legs cream..clothes,brush my hair,put on my lotion,powder my face,a lil bit of crayon :p and finally spritz some perfume)
-Leave house...lock the door and gate.
-Enter my car.
-Turn on the radio.
-Turn on the aircond.
-Lock the door if it doesn't get locked.
-Cram in between cars on the road.
-Pray hard there is atleast one parking space left in the open carpark behind the client building.
-Enter the carpark.
-Park my car.
-Turn off the engine.
-Lock the steering.
-Lock the door.
-Turn on the alarm.
-Walk towards the building.
-Call my bf who is still soundly asleep.
-Take the lift up.
-Tag myself at the main door.
-Tag myself at the Consultant Lab door.
-Take out my latop.Turn it on.
-Take out my mouse, LAN cable and power adapter.
-Connect the LAN cable and mouse.
-Connect the power adapter.
-Log into my laptop.
-Log into Ms Outlook.
-Launch many other stuff :p
-.....
-.......
-Pack my stuff.Tag myself out of the building.
-Pay the parking ticket while praying hard i have enough change.
-Drive home.
-Wash my hands,face and feet.
-change into comfy clothes.
-Eat dinner.
-Clean up table.
-.........
Well,not gonna bore u anymore...
i'm bored typing the boring routines already *sighhhh*
Anyhow, i juz wanna say that somethings are TOO routinely(is there such word?) done that we tend to not know whether i've done it today or not.
E.g. I went to the loo juz now..had to tag myself out and stuff...but i don't remember taggin myself in before that juz coz i've done it every single day.
Everytime i leave the seat, i wonder if i've packed all my stuff into my bag.
Everytime i locked my car and walk away...i wonder if i've already really locked my car...or was it yesterday that i did so.
Urgh....signs of ageing? I don't think so.
Signs of too repeatedly done? Absoloutely YES!
The good thing about doing routine stuff is...u're familiar with them and tend to do it well....
As for my trouble about not being productive at my previous role...
i found a quote for myself :
"While you are crossing the chasm, you are unproductive because you are in unfamiliarterritory." - Joe Walker -
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Many Floors Down
This post has nothing related to floors or buildings or any structures at all. Read on if u feel like reading crappy criticisms.
First off. I don't and won't say something is good unless it is really good....I can be easy to please or impossible to please. I won't simply agree with that ppl say. I won't simply acknowledge something. I won't simply like what everybody likes. Anyhow, all the above mentioned scenario would be the opposite only when i'm too tired to think or the issue is too minor to get through my system. :p
Here are some stuff i saw over the weekends. A girl...who i thought was a negro...someone says she's pretty and guyz like girls like her. First look, she's small.As in super small. Her body is just right for her structure but her legs look like sticks...so i think she has to put some flesh to the sticks to make it looks like legs. No. She's not pretty. How can the adjective for face be mapped to body? It is like saying the house is pretty because it happens to be facing a shopping mall. Her hair is straight and no it is not natural. Its rebonded. How is that pretty? I dunno. It was well cut. So she earns a point there. I dunno why i see things ppl do not see and at times i think of things that doesn't even cross anybody's mind...as in they never think until that extent i could reach. No im not a genious...juz that my creativity is elsewhere and my imaginations could get wild. The final thing i saw on thet girl was....on one of her stick-lookin leg, there's a scar...a white one. Since she's dark as in DARK...BLACK...the scar was super seen...and no. Ppl do not see that coz they were blinded but the petite body and lil clothes. See ppl. U juz gotta focus to see things sometimes. No imagination required. Btw, here's what i also know about her. She talks like as if she's in a marketplace. LOL! Saw and heard it myself when she happened to drop by the table of introvert people i was sitting at. Another news....she barely has professionalism in here. I'll keep the disgusting details to myself.K? So guys, it is not just about the body. OK? Open up ur eyes. Look more. Think more. I dunno if any of u wanna spend the rest of ur life with a girl with some disgusting attitude juz for sex sake. :p Unless..ur brain happens to be down there...then i would have no comment. *Zipped mouth*
A friend of mine is thin..but not too thin. I consider her to have quite a nice bod minus her boobs and butt....is that nice? Nah...not nice bod....but how do i describe it now? Okay..Maybe she is off the right height and her structures are of the right size. There!That's more like it. Anyhow, her face is pretty pimply and her hands are pretty dented outwards. Btw, is dented the right word to use? Nvm. Her face...Mmm...she looks ok..sometimes she looks dull though. Maybe its her complexion. There are few seconds that she looks sweet.That's one point for her.
Another friend of mine. She's super petite. Small everywhere but her boobs are of the right size. An no i do not see her butt....as in it is maybe not obvious so i dunno....and no i didn't check her out. It one-look kind of thing. Whats wrong with her? Her face is too oval at some points. That's nothing too wrong coz itz god-made. The big WRONG sign is her teeth. I dunno if she even brush them once a day. Most of the days, her teeth are yellow...few other days, i could see blood.*Eeewww* I dunno how she has a bf..aren't guyz pretty picky?As in they want pretty girls.Good body. Smell nice. Nice hair. Sweet voice. Soft skin. Sweet smile. Where does her teeth fit?Odd....
Another of mine, she has nice long hair. I believe she doesn't brush her teeth too. Odd. I wonder how they could even feel comfortable. Guess their self-esteem is sooo beyond the top of the chart. To top it off, her nails are super long. She sometimes bite them. And of coz...clean off the dirt under one nail with another. So disgusting. These ppl are unbelieveable and it is even more unbelievable how they have a bf. *faint* Either the guyz are blind(blinded by the bodies) or they are juz like these ppl. :p
Letz quite physical stuff. I believe most of the stuff i've mentioned above are not born with these ppl. They made it that way. God, i believe won't create ugly stuff. It is u who doesn't brush ur teeth. It is u who put the scars on ur body. At times holes too. Holes as in weird piercings which make u look uncivilized or in other words barbaric. Sorry but that is how i see it. Things could be accidental but admit it, 70% of the cause is from ourselves just like how i got fat and dark.See what i mean?
Other than the physical side of the world, there are some very successful women who are just not married. Honestly, im scared to say anything related to all these but is pretty scary to be sooooooooooooo successful in career yet to fail to move to the next level in your life which is to have your own family. What is a big house without children running around in it. What's the point of having alot of bucks when there is nothing to buy til the end of our lives coz itz not that we can take the money to afterlife. Life is not just about career and money. U need company, security and of coz love. Your parents and people around u won't be with u forever...u need your own life companion and of coz kids. That's how living things lives their lives. Even plants die. i.e. banana trees would only have fruits once in their lifetime...to continue having more bananas, they have their lil kids to continue. I dunno if u see what i see but that is what i see. There are more to life than juz a high post, money and big house. The essentials would a reliable shelter with roof, water, electricity and gas..clothes and food and of coz enough money for all to continue living. In that case, we can juz settle with a fried egg with plain rice or bread instead of McDonald's or TGIF's meal. Got what i mean? ;)
As for guys, the common flaws i see so far; too skinny that they hardly look they could even have a stable stance, scrawny legs or arms or both, too much gel on their hair or funny hairstyle, smokes, simply annoying and crappy (in terms of actions and verbal),messy facial hair and most of the time...nasal hair...is that what u call the hair in da nose?LOL. And last but of coz super gross; spitting in public..EEeeewwwww.
Anyway,guyz...itz disgusting. :p Clue:MAJOR turn-off Girls like me would just disqualify u. :p
Enough grants. I'm posting this now before my pessimism gets a lil out of hand. :p Disgusting ppl out there, thanks for the input. LMAO!
First off. I don't and won't say something is good unless it is really good....I can be easy to please or impossible to please. I won't simply agree with that ppl say. I won't simply acknowledge something. I won't simply like what everybody likes. Anyhow, all the above mentioned scenario would be the opposite only when i'm too tired to think or the issue is too minor to get through my system. :p
Here are some stuff i saw over the weekends. A girl...who i thought was a negro...someone says she's pretty and guyz like girls like her. First look, she's small.As in super small. Her body is just right for her structure but her legs look like sticks...so i think she has to put some flesh to the sticks to make it looks like legs. No. She's not pretty. How can the adjective for face be mapped to body? It is like saying the house is pretty because it happens to be facing a shopping mall. Her hair is straight and no it is not natural. Its rebonded. How is that pretty? I dunno. It was well cut. So she earns a point there. I dunno why i see things ppl do not see and at times i think of things that doesn't even cross anybody's mind...as in they never think until that extent i could reach. No im not a genious...juz that my creativity is elsewhere and my imaginations could get wild. The final thing i saw on thet girl was....on one of her stick-lookin leg, there's a scar...a white one. Since she's dark as in DARK...BLACK...the scar was super seen...and no. Ppl do not see that coz they were blinded but the petite body and lil clothes. See ppl. U juz gotta focus to see things sometimes. No imagination required. Btw, here's what i also know about her. She talks like as if she's in a marketplace. LOL! Saw and heard it myself when she happened to drop by the table of introvert people i was sitting at. Another news....she barely has professionalism in here. I'll keep the disgusting details to myself.K? So guys, it is not just about the body. OK? Open up ur eyes. Look more. Think more. I dunno if any of u wanna spend the rest of ur life with a girl with some disgusting attitude juz for sex sake. :p Unless..ur brain happens to be down there...then i would have no comment. *Zipped mouth*
A friend of mine is thin..but not too thin. I consider her to have quite a nice bod minus her boobs and butt....is that nice? Nah...not nice bod....but how do i describe it now? Okay..Maybe she is off the right height and her structures are of the right size. There!That's more like it. Anyhow, her face is pretty pimply and her hands are pretty dented outwards. Btw, is dented the right word to use? Nvm. Her face...Mmm...she looks ok..sometimes she looks dull though. Maybe its her complexion. There are few seconds that she looks sweet.That's one point for her.
Another friend of mine. She's super petite. Small everywhere but her boobs are of the right size. An no i do not see her butt....as in it is maybe not obvious so i dunno....and no i didn't check her out. It one-look kind of thing. Whats wrong with her? Her face is too oval at some points. That's nothing too wrong coz itz god-made. The big WRONG sign is her teeth. I dunno if she even brush them once a day. Most of the days, her teeth are yellow...few other days, i could see blood.*Eeewww* I dunno how she has a bf..aren't guyz pretty picky?As in they want pretty girls.Good body. Smell nice. Nice hair. Sweet voice. Soft skin. Sweet smile. Where does her teeth fit?Odd....
Another of mine, she has nice long hair. I believe she doesn't brush her teeth too. Odd. I wonder how they could even feel comfortable. Guess their self-esteem is sooo beyond the top of the chart. To top it off, her nails are super long. She sometimes bite them. And of coz...clean off the dirt under one nail with another. So disgusting. These ppl are unbelieveable and it is even more unbelievable how they have a bf. *faint* Either the guyz are blind(blinded by the bodies) or they are juz like these ppl. :p
Letz quite physical stuff. I believe most of the stuff i've mentioned above are not born with these ppl. They made it that way. God, i believe won't create ugly stuff. It is u who doesn't brush ur teeth. It is u who put the scars on ur body. At times holes too. Holes as in weird piercings which make u look uncivilized or in other words barbaric. Sorry but that is how i see it. Things could be accidental but admit it, 70% of the cause is from ourselves just like how i got fat and dark.See what i mean?
Other than the physical side of the world, there are some very successful women who are just not married. Honestly, im scared to say anything related to all these but is pretty scary to be sooooooooooooo successful in career yet to fail to move to the next level in your life which is to have your own family. What is a big house without children running around in it. What's the point of having alot of bucks when there is nothing to buy til the end of our lives coz itz not that we can take the money to afterlife. Life is not just about career and money. U need company, security and of coz love. Your parents and people around u won't be with u forever...u need your own life companion and of coz kids. That's how living things lives their lives. Even plants die. i.e. banana trees would only have fruits once in their lifetime...to continue having more bananas, they have their lil kids to continue. I dunno if u see what i see but that is what i see. There are more to life than juz a high post, money and big house. The essentials would a reliable shelter with roof, water, electricity and gas..clothes and food and of coz enough money for all to continue living. In that case, we can juz settle with a fried egg with plain rice or bread instead of McDonald's or TGIF's meal. Got what i mean? ;)
As for guys, the common flaws i see so far; too skinny that they hardly look they could even have a stable stance, scrawny legs or arms or both, too much gel on their hair or funny hairstyle, smokes, simply annoying and crappy (in terms of actions and verbal),messy facial hair and most of the time...nasal hair...is that what u call the hair in da nose?LOL. And last but of coz super gross; spitting in public..EEeeewwwww.
Anyway,guyz...itz disgusting. :p Clue:MAJOR turn-off Girls like me would just disqualify u. :p
Enough grants. I'm posting this now before my pessimism gets a lil out of hand. :p Disgusting ppl out there, thanks for the input. LMAO!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Loneliness Kills
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L.o.n.e.l.i.n.e.s.s. kills...
How can i erase the word from my database?
Somebody plz help me......Guess this is quite the phase where my smiles and laughter could not hide how i feel inside :
So in need for someone by my side.....i'm such a kitten....... :
This is also a phase where my work can't help to distract me from feeling the loneliness :
So in need for someone to be close to me....so in need for security and comfort...and love...and.....yeah...i could go on and on...and still feeling the same and hold back my tears....so i guess i should juz jet off now...hope i will be feeling better in my next post to myself. :
L.o.n.e.l.i.n.e.s.s. kills...
How can i erase the word from my database?
Somebody plz help me......Guess this is quite the phase where my smiles and laughter could not hide how i feel inside :
So in need for someone by my side.....i'm such a kitten....... :
This is also a phase where my work can't help to distract me from feeling the loneliness :
So in need for someone to be close to me....so in need for security and comfort...and love...and.....yeah...i could go on and on...and still feeling the same and hold back my tears....so i guess i should juz jet off now...hope i will be feeling better in my next post to myself. :
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Things better not spoken
There are things which are better kept to our hearts sometimes...esp in a relationship.
I've learnt to be patient. I've learnt to compromise. I've learnt to put my anger aside.
And the list goes on.....yet there are still more things to improve.
No doubt things can make u doubt whether or not your relationship would work...therefore,faith and determination are the keywords....i guess atleast 2 of the keywords.
Let me get straight to the point and let it out. Since it is juz 9:12am in the morning when i start cracking lines here.
I hate the fact that his biological clock is sooooo messed up.
He is almost nocturnal.Urgh...never knew this could be used on homo sapiens..but i juz used it...worse...i used it on someone i wanna have my future with.How ironic.Anyhow....i'm already working now. My work is pretty demanding at times. It is very nice that ppl around me understand that esp my family. In a relationship....communication is crucial. My biological clock is fine. I sleep at nite...i wake up and go to work in the morning. I don't doubt that there are times my work is eating up my life but i try my very best to pull it back to me. I.e. i make sure i read atleast one chapter in my storybook everyday....and sing to the songs i love and of coz listen to the radio....and yeah...facebook'ing.See!I have life!
Now, back to HIM.
1. He doesn't do his work til itz like 2 hours b4 submission...sometimes the nite b4 the deadline.
2. He hardly wakes up b4 noon...by the time he gets up..im pretty done with 12 hours of my day.
3. He doesn't eat properly and eats fastfood rather than cook crap on his own.
4. He's glued to the idiot box...urgh.
5. Hardly focused on his studies....his uni sux too...they juz suck $$$....this is definitely a priority issue
6. If i manage to leave the office early...he wants to go out with his friends and come back like 9...or 10 pm....
Last nite, he went out right after i finished packing up my stuff to go home. When i reached home, i called to ask when will he be back..he said around 9...When he got home, he told me a friend of his is coming over to buy air tickets coz this idiotic guy doens't have credit card..he said it won't take long...however,he only called when it was almost 11pm...hello?i've been up since morning and i've been working not sitting down and do nothing at work...haih.........in the end,when he called me, i was already asleep...therefore,no communication.Full stop.
Mister...please get ur stuff done..which is to get a degree and come back to kl. Forget bout earning soooo much money from stock exchange and forex and some fancy bzness ideas of urs as gettin a degree is ur number one.Quit paying for astro and stop watching the idiot box...it would make u an idiot after sometime.It first makes u a slave...then make u an idiot. Forget bout the moronic LAN games...once in awhile it is fine..but if it steals ur study time and mood away from u.Ditch it. Stop copying other ppls' hw and tests. U have better brains. Use it! Last but not least, stop dreaming about a new car. If u wanna get married and serious about it,save the $$$.OK?We can worry about ur car later.It is me who needs a new one.Need...not want....OK?
See!These kind of things are better kept inside....if i were to talk this way,it will definitely ruin my relationship. All i do is keep one eye closed and take a very deep breath. Who says i dunno how to live my life?I do :) I really do...though compromising is pretty tough....i still do :)
I've learnt to be patient. I've learnt to compromise. I've learnt to put my anger aside.
And the list goes on.....yet there are still more things to improve.
No doubt things can make u doubt whether or not your relationship would work...therefore,faith and determination are the keywords....i guess atleast 2 of the keywords.
Let me get straight to the point and let it out. Since it is juz 9:12am in the morning when i start cracking lines here.
I hate the fact that his biological clock is sooooo messed up.
He is almost nocturnal.Urgh...never knew this could be used on homo sapiens..but i juz used it...worse...i used it on someone i wanna have my future with.How ironic.Anyhow....i'm already working now. My work is pretty demanding at times. It is very nice that ppl around me understand that esp my family. In a relationship....communication is crucial. My biological clock is fine. I sleep at nite...i wake up and go to work in the morning. I don't doubt that there are times my work is eating up my life but i try my very best to pull it back to me. I.e. i make sure i read atleast one chapter in my storybook everyday....and sing to the songs i love and of coz listen to the radio....and yeah...facebook'ing.See!I have life!
Now, back to HIM.
1. He doesn't do his work til itz like 2 hours b4 submission...sometimes the nite b4 the deadline.
2. He hardly wakes up b4 noon...by the time he gets up..im pretty done with 12 hours of my day.
3. He doesn't eat properly and eats fastfood rather than cook crap on his own.
4. He's glued to the idiot box...urgh.
5. Hardly focused on his studies....his uni sux too...they juz suck $$$....this is definitely a priority issue
6. If i manage to leave the office early...he wants to go out with his friends and come back like 9...or 10 pm....
Last nite, he went out right after i finished packing up my stuff to go home. When i reached home, i called to ask when will he be back..he said around 9...When he got home, he told me a friend of his is coming over to buy air tickets coz this idiotic guy doens't have credit card..he said it won't take long...however,he only called when it was almost 11pm...hello?i've been up since morning and i've been working not sitting down and do nothing at work...haih.........in the end,when he called me, i was already asleep...therefore,no communication.Full stop.
Mister...please get ur stuff done..which is to get a degree and come back to kl. Forget bout earning soooo much money from stock exchange and forex and some fancy bzness ideas of urs as gettin a degree is ur number one.Quit paying for astro and stop watching the idiot box...it would make u an idiot after sometime.It first makes u a slave...then make u an idiot. Forget bout the moronic LAN games...once in awhile it is fine..but if it steals ur study time and mood away from u.Ditch it. Stop copying other ppls' hw and tests. U have better brains. Use it! Last but not least, stop dreaming about a new car. If u wanna get married and serious about it,save the $$$.OK?We can worry about ur car later.It is me who needs a new one.Need...not want....OK?
See!These kind of things are better kept inside....if i were to talk this way,it will definitely ruin my relationship. All i do is keep one eye closed and take a very deep breath. Who says i dunno how to live my life?I do :) I really do...though compromising is pretty tough....i still do :)
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Damnit!!!!! LoveStory
LoveStory...sounds so soapy...at times crappy too.
You can hardly tell which is wrong and which is rite in love unless you can see your future....
Long distance relationships rarely work but i have faith in mine coz mine has got quite a solid foundation before he had to go.
Most people would say it would make your heart grow ponder.In my opinion, it makes you fight even more.LOL!We tend to fight not cause we don't miss each other but we fight cause we miss each other too much but there's nothing we can do about it. :
My mood was sooo off last nite.He finally got his internet connection installed so he could now see me online and he'z been wanting to have vid calls with me so i believe has has first been waiting for his internet connection.Then he waited for me to get home.Right after im done with my dinner...my mood got worst.Thanks to my dad(Refer prev. post).
I got to my room.Turned on the electone and started playing but nothing sounds and feels right so i called him up....he took soooo long to pick up.Itz not an issue itz juz that i have he'z-stuck-with-some-games-on-his-pc thought in my head.Yeah...assumption..assumption..assumption....sowie.It turned out that he was spreading some peanut butter on his bread...forgodsake,wat'z wrong with putting the bread down and pick up???Rite?I alreayd drop whatever i'm doing when i hear him calling..why can't he do the same?Rite?Urgghhhhh....forgodsake itz juz a bread!
He picked up the phone and told me he would call me later....i can't stand talking to him with his mouthful on the phone cause i can't make out what he's saying and my mood is crazee.Usually he would ca;; me rite after he'z done with whatever he is doing but apparently last nite...he got stuck somewhere i guess...else why would he take forever rite?Then he said he wants to vid call so i hungup...get my webcam and mic connected.Called him up.His messenger hit some error and he got disconnected.That surely added fuel.I called to ask why he said "Forget it.I'm not in the mood.I dunno why you have to alwayz ruin my mood.Why do u like to fight so much?"
Trust me.I don't wish to fight.Just that sometimes he adds spice to my temper.And so everything is dumped on him in the end.Then he would complain why do i dump things on him.Can't help it honey.U're suppose to help me calm down not add things up.And when i'm super crazee u could atleast help me get to the sane side rite?You need to fight fire with water not fire with fire.HE even dare to say "This is what i meant we can't get along".WTF?!?!?!?!The question now is...do u wanna work on it or not....not whether u can get along or not.Damnit!!!!!
A friend of mine who got back from Africa got married after few months being with her husband(her bf back then)....she chatted a lil with me yesterday and she sounded oh-so-happy....i dunno if i'll ever be married...my bf seems to take forever.This is our 7th year together...Damnit!!!!If you don't take actions on ur plans...it won't happen.Planning is a very important thing....90% of the people i know do not know this and i hate it coz they will end up implementing the word Adhoc and it kills me.
Honey, can't u be water once in awhile?..........
You can hardly tell which is wrong and which is rite in love unless you can see your future....
Long distance relationships rarely work but i have faith in mine coz mine has got quite a solid foundation before he had to go.
Most people would say it would make your heart grow ponder.In my opinion, it makes you fight even more.LOL!We tend to fight not cause we don't miss each other but we fight cause we miss each other too much but there's nothing we can do about it. :
My mood was sooo off last nite.He finally got his internet connection installed so he could now see me online and he'z been wanting to have vid calls with me so i believe has has first been waiting for his internet connection.Then he waited for me to get home.Right after im done with my dinner...my mood got worst.Thanks to my dad(Refer prev. post).
I got to my room.Turned on the electone and started playing but nothing sounds and feels right so i called him up....he took soooo long to pick up.Itz not an issue itz juz that i have he'z-stuck-with-some-games-on-his-pc thought in my head.Yeah...assumption..assumption..assumption....sowie.It turned out that he was spreading some peanut butter on his bread...forgodsake,wat'z wrong with putting the bread down and pick up???Rite?I alreayd drop whatever i'm doing when i hear him calling..why can't he do the same?Rite?Urgghhhhh....forgodsake itz juz a bread!
He picked up the phone and told me he would call me later....i can't stand talking to him with his mouthful on the phone cause i can't make out what he's saying and my mood is crazee.Usually he would ca;; me rite after he'z done with whatever he is doing but apparently last nite...he got stuck somewhere i guess...else why would he take forever rite?Then he said he wants to vid call so i hungup...get my webcam and mic connected.Called him up.His messenger hit some error and he got disconnected.That surely added fuel.I called to ask why he said "Forget it.I'm not in the mood.I dunno why you have to alwayz ruin my mood.Why do u like to fight so much?"
Trust me.I don't wish to fight.Just that sometimes he adds spice to my temper.And so everything is dumped on him in the end.Then he would complain why do i dump things on him.Can't help it honey.U're suppose to help me calm down not add things up.And when i'm super crazee u could atleast help me get to the sane side rite?You need to fight fire with water not fire with fire.HE even dare to say "This is what i meant we can't get along".WTF?!?!?!?!The question now is...do u wanna work on it or not....not whether u can get along or not.Damnit!!!!!
A friend of mine who got back from Africa got married after few months being with her husband(her bf back then)....she chatted a lil with me yesterday and she sounded oh-so-happy....i dunno if i'll ever be married...my bf seems to take forever.This is our 7th year together...Damnit!!!!If you don't take actions on ur plans...it won't happen.Planning is a very important thing....90% of the people i know do not know this and i hate it coz they will end up implementing the word Adhoc and it kills me.
Honey, can't u be water once in awhile?..........
Damnit!!! @home
I dunno why but somehow now, i've gotten back to my electone and i'm looking forward to sell off my very old model of electone (EL-25)and get a used EL-500.The salesperson can't take more than RM1.7k for my electone and for me to get the model i wanna buy, i will need to pay RM250 every month for 2 years...not that long rite?But i dunno where i'll be within that 2years....So now i'm really thinking...and i have to decide within 2weeks....*sighhhhhhh*
Sometimes i wish i could be far away from home.No doubt i will miss them.Miss the homecook food and of coz miss my room. :( But things at home can be very tensed.I really wish i could cry all of this out...but surprisingly i can't. :(
When i got home last nite, it was already about 8:30pm. I ate my dinner.Then when i saw my 17-year-old bro. I asked him if he has gotten his bicycly fixed. Number one, my dad will use my car to send him to school which will cause my car's petrol(i'm not rich to keep filling in the petrol) and of coz the risk of not getting a parking spot near my block.*sigh*
Secondly, he will have to walk home everyday which oddly he doesn't mind these few weeks...very odd...i doublt he walks...he must have someone sent him home.Some rich friend's sis or mother or driver...i dunno.
When by bro said no, i asked him why not, he replied "No, i don't have time". I was like..."No time??What time do u get home btw?" He said 4 or 5pm everyday.IS that even late?Is that what u call 'no time'?Itz now the 'whether u-want-it-or-not question.Then there came my dad's voice; "Enough...why do u have to create such situation?It has nothing to do with you" ...well nothing to do with me but definitely something to do woth my money!!!!I juz replied "He would have to walk home everyday if he doesn't get it fixed." My dad replied "It is alrite.Up to him.Stop this.you have reminded him once and that is enough already.Stop this." My last reply was "Yea..it's nothing just that u can be on your own feet why bother be one someone else's shoulders and depend on them to carry u?" Then my dad went ballistic; "What is wrong with you???!?!What is your problem?Why do you like this kind of situation so much?This has nothing to do with you.Why is it such an issue?Can't u keep keep quiet?I really don't get you.What is wrong with you?Stop this." As expected, i shut up but to hear him talk like that to me, i dun feel good being home anymore. :'( And that somehow brought back the scene when i was involved in an accident with the police bike with his companies' rented car; "I have done the stupidest mistake in my life...Why did u drive this car?..What am i going to answer to the management?What will happen to my record at work?" Problem with me is, i live in the past sometimes...well, maybe most of the times just becoz I REMEMBER.After all the commotion, i cleared up the dishes and put them on the rack and head to my room.Til now i feel i dun wanna be here. :(
:'( Lemme just cry in my heart.
Sometimes i wish i could be far away from home.No doubt i will miss them.Miss the homecook food and of coz miss my room. :( But things at home can be very tensed.I really wish i could cry all of this out...but surprisingly i can't. :(
When i got home last nite, it was already about 8:30pm. I ate my dinner.Then when i saw my 17-year-old bro. I asked him if he has gotten his bicycly fixed. Number one, my dad will use my car to send him to school which will cause my car's petrol(i'm not rich to keep filling in the petrol) and of coz the risk of not getting a parking spot near my block.*sigh*
Secondly, he will have to walk home everyday which oddly he doesn't mind these few weeks...very odd...i doublt he walks...he must have someone sent him home.Some rich friend's sis or mother or driver...i dunno.
When by bro said no, i asked him why not, he replied "No, i don't have time". I was like..."No time??What time do u get home btw?" He said 4 or 5pm everyday.IS that even late?Is that what u call 'no time'?Itz now the 'whether u-want-it-or-not question.Then there came my dad's voice; "Enough...why do u have to create such situation?It has nothing to do with you" ...well nothing to do with me but definitely something to do woth my money!!!!I juz replied "He would have to walk home everyday if he doesn't get it fixed." My dad replied "It is alrite.Up to him.Stop this.you have reminded him once and that is enough already.Stop this." My last reply was "Yea..it's nothing just that u can be on your own feet why bother be one someone else's shoulders and depend on them to carry u?" Then my dad went ballistic; "What is wrong with you???!?!What is your problem?Why do you like this kind of situation so much?This has nothing to do with you.Why is it such an issue?Can't u keep keep quiet?I really don't get you.What is wrong with you?Stop this." As expected, i shut up but to hear him talk like that to me, i dun feel good being home anymore. :'( And that somehow brought back the scene when i was involved in an accident with the police bike with his companies' rented car; "I have done the stupidest mistake in my life...Why did u drive this car?..What am i going to answer to the management?What will happen to my record at work?" Problem with me is, i live in the past sometimes...well, maybe most of the times just becoz I REMEMBER.After all the commotion, i cleared up the dishes and put them on the rack and head to my room.Til now i feel i dun wanna be here. :(
:'( Lemme just cry in my heart.
Damnit!!!! @work
Wassup with everyone?Can the please stop messing with me?
To start with, why in da world does the motorcyclists be in the middle of the lane when they can hardly go faster than a car????Why must they be in the middle when we wana change lanes coz the car in front of us is too slow or the car behind us is going too fast???Damnit!!!
At work, i feel super demotivated already; i'm dumped to create inventories and accounts and inventories again...and accounts again....*sighhhhhhh* itz not so easy to create coz sometimes the environment can have sooo many issues at the same time and sometimes the users request for ridiculous stuff that i can't bulk create using the bulk create program so there are some i have to create one by one.Damnit!As for the first request, i'm not even 50% done up to this moment i'm typing this. Suddenly, there'z another request for phone numbers btu in the end the request is kept onhold coz they themselves can't decide the right prefix for the numbers they wanna use.WTH!?!?!?Next came another request and the user want it within 1 or 2 days, pretty adhoc rite?They wanna it to be in a diff server...some stuff juz couldn't be done from the backend...so til now i still have some trouble to get it done; have to disable some table references but i can't do it so i would require someone else's help but that someone maybe sees it as something not-so important or that someone is just to bz to look at my stuff.Damnit!!!!Towards the end of yesterday, came in another request...not many but a lil bit troublesome coz she wants many diff accounts under different type and packages and yea....diff types of penalties..WTH?!?!?!?Why can't they create????I can provide the numbers and SIMs no prob....Damnit!!!!
While others are getting super familiar with the system, i create stuff like a factory..can't say im not important but my tasks are pretty tedious and of cz repetitive...see the word "BORING"???LOL!A few is given the chance to look into automation tools...why them?Im the one who was a test engineer b4 this.... : and yea..then again i have a handful of tasks and i dunno if anyone wanna gimme a hand...now i'm wondering if they purposely do this to tell me i'm not capable in the end of the day....possible rite?*told ya i'm pessimist*
Now, my career.Where do i go from here?My current capability is Java but i hardly touch Java after i graduated...i wanna do SAP but til now, i still haven't complete the SAP Overview training..*haihhh* If the really can't get me into SAP, I'm gonna do my very best to get myself to be Oracle Associate DBA!!!I tell u i will if you don't gimme what i want!Could be a lot of work and time but i'm willing to do it to be different!!!!And of coz to show them i can be valueable without their help.Who are they to decide in the first place???Damnit!!!!
My current roll-off date is 1st June... most people will be gone by then...but now i'm wondering if they wanna keep me that long since i know nothing much about how to the system does it stuff....I dun mind rolling-off earlier..but where will they dump me next?I have no sense of direction.I dun like to park at funny places.I still wanna be able to claim adequate mileage.
Siiiigggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
To start with, why in da world does the motorcyclists be in the middle of the lane when they can hardly go faster than a car????Why must they be in the middle when we wana change lanes coz the car in front of us is too slow or the car behind us is going too fast???Damnit!!!
At work, i feel super demotivated already; i'm dumped to create inventories and accounts and inventories again...and accounts again....*sighhhhhhh* itz not so easy to create coz sometimes the environment can have sooo many issues at the same time and sometimes the users request for ridiculous stuff that i can't bulk create using the bulk create program so there are some i have to create one by one.Damnit!As for the first request, i'm not even 50% done up to this moment i'm typing this. Suddenly, there'z another request for phone numbers btu in the end the request is kept onhold coz they themselves can't decide the right prefix for the numbers they wanna use.WTH!?!?!?Next came another request and the user want it within 1 or 2 days, pretty adhoc rite?They wanna it to be in a diff server...some stuff juz couldn't be done from the backend...so til now i still have some trouble to get it done; have to disable some table references but i can't do it so i would require someone else's help but that someone maybe sees it as something not-so important or that someone is just to bz to look at my stuff.Damnit!!!!Towards the end of yesterday, came in another request...not many but a lil bit troublesome coz she wants many diff accounts under different type and packages and yea....diff types of penalties..WTH?!?!?!?Why can't they create????I can provide the numbers and SIMs no prob....Damnit!!!!
While others are getting super familiar with the system, i create stuff like a factory..can't say im not important but my tasks are pretty tedious and of cz repetitive...see the word "BORING"???LOL!A few is given the chance to look into automation tools...why them?Im the one who was a test engineer b4 this.... : and yea..then again i have a handful of tasks and i dunno if anyone wanna gimme a hand...now i'm wondering if they purposely do this to tell me i'm not capable in the end of the day....possible rite?*told ya i'm pessimist*
Now, my career.Where do i go from here?My current capability is Java but i hardly touch Java after i graduated...i wanna do SAP but til now, i still haven't complete the SAP Overview training..*haihhh* If the really can't get me into SAP, I'm gonna do my very best to get myself to be Oracle Associate DBA!!!I tell u i will if you don't gimme what i want!Could be a lot of work and time but i'm willing to do it to be different!!!!And of coz to show them i can be valueable without their help.Who are they to decide in the first place???Damnit!!!!
My current roll-off date is 1st June... most people will be gone by then...but now i'm wondering if they wanna keep me that long since i know nothing much about how to the system does it stuff....I dun mind rolling-off earlier..but where will they dump me next?I have no sense of direction.I dun like to park at funny places.I still wanna be able to claim adequate mileage.
Siiiigggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
